♥azi / 10:23 PM

my diary task: reconnect with your aquatic origins by spending all of today underwater.

hello my fellow countrymen!! weeeeee!!
im so so bak. it felt like ages since i ever touch a comp. so yah. lemme see wat ive done sooooo far.

thurs
LIA meeting practically the whole day. from 3-10.o yah! watched movie.. the confessions of a teenage drama queen. niceeee..

friday
rushed to watch shrek wif sis. b4 tat wen shopping for wat i hav to wear to interview. after watching, rushed for interview n was late 5 fuckin mins. den waited for 1 fuckin hour for my turn. i asked the 'usherer' guy. . .

me: excuse me, i blive my appt is at 3pm. u can c my letter if you wan prove.
him: oh! u havent go in yet?
me: obviously, coz im still sitting here.
him: o ok, wats ur name?
me: (my full name). do u need me to write down for u?
him: no its ok, hold on pls.

kaoz, lucky it was my turn aft tat. if not, i'll spank him! hehe
interview was fine. too much to mention.
aft tat wen for mad bbq!!! it was nice... jus us. i know i had fun. laughing like hell as usual. n tats the onli time i actually show my true self to the guys. muahahaha...!!!! right haya? ;)
im spose to meet nj. but it was raining like hell n god din let us meet each other. :( sori nj my lurvely freeeen....
nisa's dad was so nice to giv us a lift home. =) thx many many!! reached hm like 12am+. den slept 2am+ coz chat wif mom. mish her =)

saturday
D-Day: ACOC Contact Session 1
overslept. dad sent me n linda. reached there on time. very ferking slack-and it is giving me a very very bad feeling. almost dozed off in the morning lect. n onli a pathetic 8 ppl is attending ACOC. no comments abt them YET.
we were given many many many stuffs to do. as in our own platoon. we hav to plan the whole camp (4D3N)wic includes different exercises and given 5 different posts each,20-wk plan, 15 mins lesson plan each. tats like.. 8 proposals altogether. god bless us all goin for VIP.
i know, we hav alot of things to brush up. coz had mock FD accred. n i failed. muahaha. ya lorr.. i know my mistakes.. hopefully wont repeat them. i blive tat wasnt my best tat time coz i failed. not to worry, i WILL do my very very best the nex time. shant let anione down (= ate at bedok wif the gang.. den go home wif them. lol! eusoff slp, my god.. poor him. at first was reading on evac, in the end. felt sleppy.. so slp for a while in e bus. reach home almost 12am also.
-___-""

today
D-Day plus 1: ACOC Contact Session 2
was on time to meet them. pb wore a pink shirt.
reminds me of no.11. muahaha! onli ain knows who is no.11. hehex.
was very nervous all the way to campsite.we did evac bronze n silver. n by luck, i manage to scrape through.. and i volunteered to b the cheer i/c. omg. i duno wat was i thinkin wen i actually volunteered. watever, someone has to b rite?
generally, i tink that, my grp (of 11 ppl) shud work more closely together n put away our differences. this isnt a one man's show. its teamwork. im very disappointed. i know if i were to order ppl ard, ppl might think im one big shot. but who else if not one of us were to take the initiative? and some ppl jus tok so much, but notin is being contributed. the way we react to instructions,the way we move, not a leader at all.
haish

tmr, n the whole of nex wk, im sure, i'll hav many paperwork to do, meetings to go n alot of negotiating to do. so i doubt i'll have time to update.


god please give me strength.

♥azi / 8:22 PM

my diary task: famous last words-prepare yours ahead of time

hmmm nutin much happen last few days [ya rite...]

monday
wen to evg to check FA kit,stretchers n zinc sheets
end up running ard like one mad woman coz lookin for mr vik at the same time
tat ARSE. urgh.
had lunch wit iggy
and had CU04 meeting. many things have to change coz of the no. of campers attending.
den had to catch FRIENDS at fdcourt lol. but in the end, miss 15mins of it coz they off the blardie tv. those buggers.

tuesday
first thing in the morning: letter from NHG to go for interview.
yes! theres hope!!!
wen to eve's and play xbox.. together wif zaid
played medal of honor:rising sun.. kaoz. zaid expert man. but i also manage to kill him a no. of times. muahahaha. well, he still wins. played lotr,and other car games.
on the way home, saw the ex-e4 malay guys at the fitness corner. hehe. nice to c them.
den went cwp to watch van helsing with michelle and pb. not bad the show.. but troy is the best. the ending kinda... sad ar. haish. nope, i din cry.
=)

today . . .
i played xbox . . . ALONE.sianz.
den went to evg to collect LIA proposals and teach the mass dance com the dance.
i was friggin lazy. yes, i am lazy. haha i jus sit there n sorta let ain did the tokin.
irresponsible? yeah man. feels goooood.let me feel like a slacker for once...
den raining, tot can go jogging n like train up.
ayu n eve came also n joined us.
den we go makan at 883. had dessert... and CE came n met us to look tru the pathetic proposals. aft tat balik.. walk wif ayu.
and met sid on the way. my god, he look sooooo fair. i envy him. haha

deregen turugumorogow haregev meereegeeteereging.shit man. airegai dorogon waragan tooroogoo gorogo. fuck man. caregun regerest maregen.


now. i shud stop coz CSI is startin soon!!!

♥azi / 2:31 PM

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♥azi / 1:31 PM

my diary task: distribute friendship coupons

super hotness day.

orite orite.
my arab paper sux man. lol!! cuase i din make an effort to study for itt!!!
*GRINZ*
basically i jus slacked. ya, slacked during exam.
im just too friggin lazy man.
o yah, ustaz taufik wont b teaching us animore n he'll be leaving us.
altogether now.. AWWWWW.....
but it doesnt affect me at all. some of my frens fancies him, but, i dun.
haha. sumtin new ar.. hehehe
urgh. coz of last wk ar, i very bingit. but nvm.. sabar.

yday wen for meeting.
all okie ar. nutin much happen.
den met eusoff ard tat area also. he's spose to b there, but god knows where he went.
den he go scream my name. wtf?! haha den i scream his name also.
muahaha
den also met faizal sir from ncc. at first, he din c n im pissed lor.
urgh. hehe. den went walk some more, den he saw. den jus wave n smile ar.
. . . . . .

ok. lets tok abt nex wk.
one word. FUN!!!!
okay, lets make it three....
FUN AND BUSY!!!!!
weeeeEEEeeEEE!!

jus lookin forward for friday. i have meeting in the aftnn, den have bbq to go.
no not lookin forward for meeting, but for bbq!!!!
hehehex!!

lalalalalala

yday i play xbox, wah fuck man.
so sianz!!!!
play alone no challenge arr....
esp LOTR. must play 2 person, den fun
teehee.
eh, anione ar, who free so sian.. nothing to do, let me know
den can hang out ya'll!!!

but ar, my schedule for nex 3 wks seems to b fully booked.
okie, watever. jus contact me yaaaaaa!!

weeeeeeee!!!!!

oooh OH OH OH!!!!!!!!! TROY IS FANTASTIC!! watched wif rajvin. lol!!! yah.. coz he called n sounded panic. so i jus watch ar.
okok. lemme review it.
overall, its great. its definitely 5 out of 5. the footage, the picture, the effetcs, the props, costumes its great. reminds me of Band of Brothers. its definitely my kind of show. altoh its kinda erm, violent, its great.
and omg. i cried at one scene coz . . . shant spoil it. teehee.
eric bana is super hotness. so as brad pitt. but orlando bloom . . .kinda disappointed. haha.the way he acted his character like... a bit gay. haha.but, im sure its a difficult role.however, he shud stick to legolas.
;)
at one part, i tot its the end. like tats it. but, theres a twist to it. for those who watched already, knows wat im tokin abt. its great how they did that. i was fooled too.

it has substance. like ALL war movies.

suddenly feel like watching saving private ryan.

♥azi / 11:55 AM

anione watch NBC.com > The Restaurant?
ive been watchin it since the first episode.
its shown on Channel i, every thursday @ 9pm.
yah, tat means its clashed with 24 on AXN.

briefly, i'll explain wat its all abt.

Rocco DiSpirito is the chef and the owner of Rocco's. and it shows behind-the-scenes look in the kitchen.. and the second episode,part of the kitchen was on fire.. and the best part is, its the first day of the opening. then like in ani restaurant, it shows how the staff work, the filtrations, the tanrums, the cursing n swearing, and it gave me 2nd tots to work in a restaurant.
in the first episode, their opening was on tat day, and they still have renovation goin on. and its like a few hrs till the first customer comes in.

one of the reasons tat it keeps me watching every week is, to ans my qn: "will this restaurant make it? will there be ani more staff in the end?"
and another reason is, the chef is ccuuuuutttteeee.........!!!!!!!!!!
hehex.

and yes, its another reality tv show.
and nope, its not the best reality tv show.
i still dun undst y i chose to watch this over 24.

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♥azi / 11:09 AM

my diary task: today build a nest and see if a bird comes.

finally. a day wic i can REST and breathe . . .
i have ZERO plans today. and dun intend to make plans.
coz i wan to spend quality time wif my honey - xbox
or if i wan to make plans, i'll do sumtin relaxing.
lik catch a movie or play pool or sumtin. duno lar, see how.

im still kinda worried for the nex 3 wks.
will i b able to cope and not screw up?
onli time can tell.

speakin of nex 3 wks, OC is showing nex 3 wks man!
argh! its killing moi !!
but luckily its not the days wen im having camp.
wEEeeeEE.......!!!

ive been slpin in my bro's rm since i left.
and i kept staring at his bicycle.
its super cool man. and i dun know y he still doesnt cycle to clementi and do his mountain biking thingy...
prolly he's too old? or . . hehe since he is engaged, he gotta stop?
or mayb no time at all?
im so goin to take his bike and make it MINE!!!! muahahaha!

and sometin else is killing me. i dun have camera AT ALL.
my bro took it wit him.
and left me wif notin to practise on.
hehex. i feel tat my skills are deteoriating!!
heeeelllp!!

o yes! once i gt my pay, wat shud i do wif it?
1. buy cheap cheap but nice nice clothes? [tat means i'll hav a lot]
2. buy the Nike duffel bag ive been eyeing?
3. save it?

ani suggestions anione?


i miss 1e3 '00

♥azi / 10:34 PM

instant madness.

why did i even tot of involving myself into this?
after meetings, i feel so much pressure n bcame more stressed.
maybe some of u tink this is nothin comparing to wat u all are goin tru.
and i know some of my frens are goin tru much much much more craziness. but to me this is ... duno how to say lar.
i was shocked n speechless for a moment.

its been ages since im involved in a camp.
and i cant blive im goin tru it AGAIN. and this time was I CHOSE.

i jus cant accept the fact tat im goin for ACOC.
just cant sink it in.

and i'll be having LIA camp... den the nex day is the VIC.
omg.
but im quite heng lar.. hehe not as bad as other ppl.
im kinda worried for my gran toh. she needs her injection. den its lik im the onli one who can do it.den must ask sumone else to take over me ...

besides, my bro coming bak on 5th. and its like, i cant be there.
im not there wen he went off. and im not there wen he arrive.
haish. no choice-sacrifice

♥azi / 12:18 PM

my diary task: today learn a new knot.

yoOOoohooooOO...! yeah. blive it or not, im bz from the start of the day. like 8+am. received alot alot of sms n missed calls.i knew it will be like this coz today theres 2 meetings [CU04:3pm@Wlands Stadium & LIA:7pm@Horizon], and suddenly stuffs had piled up.

n actually NOW im spose to go to eve's n play xbox wif and ask zaid along... since i dun hav to go to ADSS to meet the RCY YO to settle sumtin.. BUT, eve told me she has appt, n zaid cant come coz he jus got called in for work n he accpeted it, n now they left me waiting for 1.15pm to meet YS n gang for lunch [but brunch for me teehee]. so its like, cancelled one plan, another new plan came up. hehex. [ok, if dun undst watever i wrote, dun bother re-reading it agn muahaha]

n i tot im workin in the morn today, but felicia told me dun hav to come.haish... den tmr? not workin...
y? coz have LIA meeting, not confirmed wat time also. and ain n me planned wana watch movie at town. not sure wat show. but ive asked zaid in advance to come along. hopefully the rest can come also.. the more the merrier! weeeEEEeee!!!

o yah. yday i read a testi my fren wrote for me, n got me tinkin n reminising the old times.. haish. in hpps, i used to play netball n i was in the sch team. tat was wen i was in a pink of health!! but now, i cant do much of those coz . . . yah, some stuff. and netball has been a part of my life for 4 yrs or so. quite sad ar, coz i missed those times wen i can run endlessly w/o panting like hell.

note to my niece. . .altoh she cant read it, but watever..
[happie 3rd bday to my adoroable niece Alya Adriana. dun b noti k? dun watch too much Disney Channel or play too much computer. auntie loves u to pieces.o yes, dun take my Kim Possible pillow. muax.]

♥azi / 8:19 PM

my diary task: today make sure your parents know you love them. it may seem impossible to say but don't wait until it is.

orite. it has been an interestin weekend for me.

fridae was my 1st day @ work. n the journey sux until tat psychotic asshole ruined my day. urgh. some malay guy in mid 30s try to make a move on me. n i gave him fake details wen ask for my name, age, blah blah. giler siol. tak sedar diri.
so anw,it was kinda nice lar the place. but the environment of the workplace intimidates me... coz im like the onli malay i saw. but heck... i survived.
i had a great time n laughed like crazey wif joanne. hehekz.

yday spose to go to work. tapi, i hav plans wif my family n they need me to be there. it was my nieces bday party. nurin's bday was on 3rd may while alya's is this comin 18th. they had an advance party coz my bro will be leaving for wales the nex day [today]. so dun wan my bro to miss out the fun. and i watched this hindi show, Lagaan, very nice.. reminds me of A League of their Own. but its cricket instead of baseball. teehee.
spose to meet ain, eve n hanson at clarke quay at their workplace, but i hav to study for my madrasah exams.

n today, wen to madrasah by myself coz my family hav to send bro to the airport in the morn. the exam SUX siol. sirah, cannot make it. i din realli study it coz it makes me slp everytime i read it. quran oral, SUX man. ustaz taufik lar! i knew tat guy has some tricks up his sleeves.

ustaz: okay, skrg tajwid kan?
me: 0_0 huh? tapi ustaz haron nyer grp takder.
ustaz: yerlar,tapi saya lain. [wif his usual cheeky face]
me: -_- [grrr]. *rolls eyes* bismillah.
ustaz: okay, line "bi akwabiu . . .", 'ba' bertemu dgn 'wau' tanwin. aper hukumnyer?
me: erm, idgham bighuna.
ustaz: betul? [taps fingers....narrow his eyes]
me: [o shit o shit o shit] er.. yer betul.
ustaz: betul eh? tanak tukar? confirm..?
me: [i hate u lor] hmm, yerlar betul confirm. [showing him the straight face padahal tgh panik giler]
ustaz: [take his bk.. lookin at me.wif his pen...] okay, idgham bighunah eh? ok. khalas.
me: er.. rite. okie. [take his bk, put bhind n leave IMMEDIATELY]

wth man. that 10 mins feels like half an hour siol.watever lar.

hadith paper was like... goddamn.i dunno how to do some of them den exchanged ans wif nisa. muahahha. yalah! the tcher in-charge [ustaz mustafa aka tapa] tido. lol! shud hav seen his face. hilarious man.

den spose to watch movie wif freddy. but i was super lazy. besides im having pms. still havin cramps. soriler....
den all the time, i jus watch dvd n xboxing. den i left house wif family to go n c my cousin's baby. o goodness, so adorable. but i was kinda anti-social ar. jus sit there n watch tv.. refuse to eat... n jus watching the kids. very cute man. and AGAIN, my aunts n uncles said i look differently. den wen one of dem said tat, they stare at me.aper seh.... gimme a break ar. hehehe.
den aft tat go to west coast park. suddenly i get all excited. hehe. coz im goin there nex nex friday for my madrasah class gathering. and blimey! its very fun!! n nisa[madrasah] saw me but wun tell me where she is. sampai hati engkau... and im like so inspired to bring frisbee, kite, go n play soccer, jogging n relive the sporty days. *ponders* hehe.

yay! lookin forward for tat day ppl!!

n now, im goin to jus chiiiiilll . . .
tmr is another day, n im workin -_-. and nex wk will b a pretty bz wk for me. haish.


and i miss goin out wif my frens.love u guys many many

♥azi / 2:51 PM

my diary task: invent new color

lemme see... hmmm.

im spose to go to work today.
lol! yah.. i cant blive im GOIN TO WORK.
i mean, ME.yah, ME!
every morning i'll go, "ok,lets play LOTR and kill some orcs baby!"

but tmr i'll go "i hav to go to work..DUN TOK TO ME! o for gods sakes, where is my watch?! im late!!"

like unbelievable gitu. but i din go ar.. coz jus got the news at 12nn.
and im stuck in front of tv. teehee.
and ive been watchin indiana jones dvds. yah, tats wat super free ppl do u see..
but im goin to work tmr.
i cant blive im sayin it."im goin to work tmr."
o shux.. hav to wake up super early siol.

ive been reading my hadith bk to study for exam this sun.
but u c, nutin can go in my brain while im watching tv . . .
hehe
yah..

and i still cant sink in the fact tat my bro will be leaving for Wales this sun.
urgh. hate him for tat.
he'll be bak on 6june i tink..
untill then, i'll hog his room baby!! weeeeee!!!

o yah! im spose to take my new specs today!!
buuuuuut, depends ar. if anione can send me to take it.

it has been a frickin warm n humid day. o wait, it has been like dat the pass few days.
hmm, anione in for a tan?

hahaha jkjk.
are u kiddin?! it took me a mth or so to un-tan myself n now im askin for more?!
giler. noway.. ah-ah.

o well, i'll join in for an adventure wif LXG!!

♥azi / 10:51 PM

part two (and the final one)

i dragged myself out of my sofa bed.
im jus super tired.
and aft bathing onli i remembered i hav exam.
bengang betul lar.

den we had to change classes and all. n im wif nisa.
actually wif hafizah, but we xchanged partners.

fiqh was a breeze for me except last qn. abt process solat jenazah.
at first i did all the qns.. den the ustaz came in n told us to read the bloody arahan.
pipa betul. do onli 6 out of eight.
den thank god, i cancel the first n last qn hehe

during break hang ard wif my classmates.

blah blah blah

and i kinda dozed off during tauhid paper.
lol. yah.. n ustaz called me to tell me abt quran exam.
and i jus said ya, ok.
den i ask my fren behind wat he said lol.
bengap siol me

den we had we thingy abt the camp thingy..
and i like pissed ar.. dragged the time n all
i met ustaz taufik n told him ar, nak buat the quran thing nex wk
duh. im so unprepared! i mean, USTAZ TAUFIK siol. he is gonna grill me.
for those who dunno, its like oral.. onli more complicated. teehee.
and i begged my bro to fetch me from sch.
and he did!
yay!!

reach home liao, makan... den relak relak..
sampai tertido. n din go for maulud thingy.
n mom sorta massage my bak, wah very great feeling..
i feel loved. hehe yes manjer i know
:p
den bangun at 6+
wah syok siol

den watch tv. eat dinner.watch tv agn. now online. later watch dvd wif bro. den tido.

and i miss wearing uniforms.

♥azi / 10:12 PM

[part one]

yday betul2 family day.

went out wif my folks, sis n her family to Snow City,West Coast Hawker Ctr, Queensway Shopping Ctr,town, Komala Villas and Mustafa Ctr.
hehehe yah

i tink it sorta like family cum mother's day
yup yup.
it was fun ar..

and i made new specs!! yay!! hehe

wen to taka den mom bot this extremely stunning manik2
i tink its a divider thingy tat u hang at the door?
yah, tat thing. entah wat its called in EL.
watever it is, its beautiful, jus like my mom
=)
den we watch the drum guys. its great man.
great feeling to be there n listen to them.
power siol they all.

den go little india to makan dinner.
i had paper masala. [ok, for those whu dunno wats tat, its not realli paper. ala, go check it out lar, lazy wana explain]
and its fuckin nice.
i always had normal masala. but paper masala was the ultimate heaven.
n i know once im at little india wif my MOM, we WILL go to mustafa ctr.
n i tell u, its so packed siol. alot of ppl.
and im dying out there. coz im friggin tired.

ok cut short.

i reached home at 12am+
and manage to jus read fiqh wif my half-opened eyes.

♥azi / 11:44 PM

wen for NUH open hous and the hospital tour is waaaaay better den SGH.
we visited many places wic SGH din reali show.
went wif Ibnu n we had many things to catch up!
and i embarassed myself alot of times during the 'talk'
quite . . . paiseh.

aft tat met ain n eve went to NYP.
go there coz ain wana settle sometin n we ate lunch.
den there is this 'NYP Staff Corner'
and not sure if we're sitted at the rite place. hehe
alah, malas wana blog here.

den ain n me wen town to jus . . . hang.
actually im jus killing time to meet my family at airport at later time.
den wen to far east jln2 . . buang maser..
den met irna n kel.
hehe very farnie bunch.
den jus hang n tok at kfc there.. n i was watching for cars.
o lord, i can do tat the whole day.

den i rush to airport.. on the way, met freddy.
he look so shocked to c me.. tat bugger. hehe
din get to chat ar, coz firstly, malas. secondly, im rushing. thirdly, he looked SO DAMN shocked tat he dun welcome my prescence. den malas ar.. hehe

on the way to airport via mrt was a cooool journey.
i mean, tats the very first time i wen to airport via mrt!!!!!
like yay!! hehe
den reach airport, met my family.. den we jus do the normal routine..
yah.. like hugging.. how are yous... wat u doin nows... blah blah blah.
we sent off my bro's mom in law. [geddit?]

after dat balik. watch teevee. makan. now blogging. later teevee agn. den tido.

♥azi / 8:47 PM

Wayne Wonder - Hold me now

I have a picture,
Pinned to my wall.
An image of you and of me and we're laughing and loving it all.
Look at our life now, tattered and torn.
We fuss and we fight and delight in the tears that we cry until dawn

Hold me now, warm my heart
Stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

You say I'm a dreamer, we're two of a kind
Both of us searching for some perfect world we know we'll never find
So perhaps I should leave here, yeah yeah go far away
But you know that theres no where that I'd rather be than with you here today

Hold me now, warm my heart
Stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

You ask if I love you, well what can I say?
You know that I do and if this is just one of those games that we play
So I'll sing you a new song, please don't cry anymore
And then I'll ask your forgiveness, though I don't know just what I'm asking you for

Hold me now, warm my heart
Stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

♥azi / 8:38 PM

jus came bak from town wif haya n fana.
hehe yah..
catch 50 first dates also..
haish.
love the movie.
its so touching n sweeeeeet
yah, uve guessed it.. i cried..
but i dun tink haya n fana noticed hehe
cant help it!!!
its so sweeeeet n touching n henry roth (adam sandler) willing to wait for her
and . . . and... AR!
shant spoil for those who haven catch it hehe

o yah, met my bro in borders.
cant blive it man. of ALL places.

den went shopping
walked like forever..
and i got myself some stuff
teehee
so excited!!

aniwei, i had fun girls!!
;)

♥azi / 10:57 AM

okie. decided to change my template into a simple one..
coz im jus too lazy to do anitin nice.
and i dun tink i will be updating tat much.. jus too lazy.

lately, been gaming wif ain n evonne.
hehe yah.. great team we will make.

o yes, last sunday wen for the wedding..
and it was jus great.
loads of ppl.. n great yummy food.
and it takes forever for me to get to my eating place from the buffet area coz everytime i turn ard, there will b someone to jus hug me n have a lil chat.
insane.

overall, great wedding.

♥azi / 7:39 PM

fooooood... yummy foooooodd....
i ate like a pig at this wedding i jus attended. and its my close cousin ar.
so, its pretty much like everywhere i go, there will be ppl hugging n go 'eh azi!!! *hugs*'
yah..

before leaving for the nikah, i played xbox for a while. . . in my baju kurung
lol yah.. very erm... wrong and inappropriate.
yelar, pakai baju kurung abeh main xbox eh? bagus lar tu.
my bro also joined in. hehe.

i know one thing tat came out of my mind wen i step into the house was.. .
" i feel like a fool."
why bloody hell i felt like a fool?! coz instead of seeing ppl (ladies&gentlemen) wearing baju kurung n all tradition, i saw (most of the guys) in t-shirts and JEANS.
i was like! eh siol, am i attendin the rite occsion or wat? why am i all dressed up and they're not?!
i was freaking out at a moment coz everyone was staring at us (my family) wen we enter.
and we are all dressed in green. different shades of green..

and the friggin tok kadi.. i tink he went for detour or he went for a mini shopping at jurong pt.
he is sooooo late. but heck man, i enjoyed waiting. coz i was sitted and watching tv in the room.
haha yah, anti social.
and the whole time of waiting, i kept asking myself.. why are we so dressed up? are we over dressed for this occasion?
blah blah blah.
oh and thank gawd, i switched my fone to silent. coz i had a few fone calls.
he-he. not to repeat my mistake.
my fone rang during my bro's nikah, n i was rite in front. =_="".

after all the nikah process and photo taking thingy..
off we went to makan!!
orite man, sometin i look forward coz they cook themselves. yah, they cook all by themselves for this wedding.
and these ppl are the best cooks ever. not that they are cooks, their food is jus superb.
den i ate... fuuuuh! power siol. esp the ayam lemak cili padi. spicy.. I LOVE IT.

den after eating.. we ate some more.. yah..
and we ate some more...
and we [no,not eat] chat ard ar.. chat wif my aunt..
and one of them said i look different weeeee! hehehe
hopefully she meant it in a gd way =) hehe
den ppl hugging etc.
and some of them tot im my sis's daughter.
-_- not surprising toh. it simply shows tat some of my aunts dun EVEN KNOW I EXIST!!!!!!
yah.. i'll live :p

tmr no madrasah!! wooohooo!!!
and tmr my bro will go kl to hetty's house got this maulid rasul thingy..
and tmr shall go to the wedding.
yeah man.
cant wait.

/ 10:23 PM

my diary task: reconnect with your aquatic origins by spending all of today underwater.

hello my fellow countrymen!! weeeeee!!
im so so bak. it felt like ages since i ever touch a comp. so yah. lemme see wat ive done sooooo far.

thurs
LIA meeting practically the whole day. from 3-10.o yah! watched movie.. the confessions of a teenage drama queen. niceeee..

friday
rushed to watch shrek wif sis. b4 tat wen shopping for wat i hav to wear to interview. after watching, rushed for interview n was late 5 fuckin mins. den waited for 1 fuckin hour for my turn. i asked the 'usherer' guy. . .

me: excuse me, i blive my appt is at 3pm. u can c my letter if you wan prove.
him: oh! u havent go in yet?
me: obviously, coz im still sitting here.
him: o ok, wats ur name?
me: (my full name). do u need me to write down for u?
him: no its ok, hold on pls.

kaoz, lucky it was my turn aft tat. if not, i'll spank him! hehe
interview was fine. too much to mention.
aft tat wen for mad bbq!!! it was nice... jus us. i know i had fun. laughing like hell as usual. n tats the onli time i actually show my true self to the guys. muahahaha...!!!! right haya? ;)
im spose to meet nj. but it was raining like hell n god din let us meet each other. :( sori nj my lurvely freeeen....
nisa's dad was so nice to giv us a lift home. =) thx many many!! reached hm like 12am+. den slept 2am+ coz chat wif mom. mish her =)

saturday
D-Day: ACOC Contact Session 1
overslept. dad sent me n linda. reached there on time. very ferking slack-and it is giving me a very very bad feeling. almost dozed off in the morning lect. n onli a pathetic 8 ppl is attending ACOC. no comments abt them YET.
we were given many many many stuffs to do. as in our own platoon. we hav to plan the whole camp (4D3N)wic includes different exercises and given 5 different posts each,20-wk plan, 15 mins lesson plan each. tats like.. 8 proposals altogether. god bless us all goin for VIP.
i know, we hav alot of things to brush up. coz had mock FD accred. n i failed. muahaha. ya lorr.. i know my mistakes.. hopefully wont repeat them. i blive tat wasnt my best tat time coz i failed. not to worry, i WILL do my very very best the nex time. shant let anione down (= ate at bedok wif the gang.. den go home wif them. lol! eusoff slp, my god.. poor him. at first was reading on evac, in the end. felt sleppy.. so slp for a while in e bus. reach home almost 12am also.
-___-""

today
D-Day plus 1: ACOC Contact Session 2
was on time to meet them. pb wore a pink shirt.
reminds me of no.11. muahaha! onli ain knows who is no.11. hehex.
was very nervous all the way to campsite.we did evac bronze n silver. n by luck, i manage to scrape through.. and i volunteered to b the cheer i/c. omg. i duno wat was i thinkin wen i actually volunteered. watever, someone has to b rite?
generally, i tink that, my grp (of 11 ppl) shud work more closely together n put away our differences. this isnt a one man's show. its teamwork. im very disappointed. i know if i were to order ppl ard, ppl might think im one big shot. but who else if not one of us were to take the initiative? and some ppl jus tok so much, but notin is being contributed. the way we react to instructions,the way we move, not a leader at all.
haish

tmr, n the whole of nex wk, im sure, i'll hav many paperwork to do, meetings to go n alot of negotiating to do. so i doubt i'll have time to update.


god please give me strength.

/ 8:22 PM

my diary task: famous last words-prepare yours ahead of time

hmmm nutin much happen last few days [ya rite...]

monday
wen to evg to check FA kit,stretchers n zinc sheets
end up running ard like one mad woman coz lookin for mr vik at the same time
tat ARSE. urgh.
had lunch wit iggy
and had CU04 meeting. many things have to change coz of the no. of campers attending.
den had to catch FRIENDS at fdcourt lol. but in the end, miss 15mins of it coz they off the blardie tv. those buggers.

tuesday
first thing in the morning: letter from NHG to go for interview.
yes! theres hope!!!
wen to eve's and play xbox.. together wif zaid
played medal of honor:rising sun.. kaoz. zaid expert man. but i also manage to kill him a no. of times. muahahaha. well, he still wins. played lotr,and other car games.
on the way home, saw the ex-e4 malay guys at the fitness corner. hehe. nice to c them.
den went cwp to watch van helsing with michelle and pb. not bad the show.. but troy is the best. the ending kinda... sad ar. haish. nope, i din cry.
=)

today . . .
i played xbox . . . ALONE.sianz.
den went to evg to collect LIA proposals and teach the mass dance com the dance.
i was friggin lazy. yes, i am lazy. haha i jus sit there n sorta let ain did the tokin.
irresponsible? yeah man. feels goooood.let me feel like a slacker for once...
den raining, tot can go jogging n like train up.
ayu n eve came also n joined us.
den we go makan at 883. had dessert... and CE came n met us to look tru the pathetic proposals. aft tat balik.. walk wif ayu.
and met sid on the way. my god, he look sooooo fair. i envy him. haha

deregen turugumorogow haregev meereegeeteereging.shit man. airegai dorogon waragan tooroogoo gorogo. fuck man. caregun regerest maregen.


now. i shud stop coz CSI is startin soon!!!

/ 2:31 PM

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/ 1:31 PM

my diary task: distribute friendship coupons

super hotness day.

orite orite.
my arab paper sux man. lol!! cuase i din make an effort to study for itt!!!
*GRINZ*
basically i jus slacked. ya, slacked during exam.
im just too friggin lazy man.
o yah, ustaz taufik wont b teaching us animore n he'll be leaving us.
altogether now.. AWWWWW.....
but it doesnt affect me at all. some of my frens fancies him, but, i dun.
haha. sumtin new ar.. hehehe
urgh. coz of last wk ar, i very bingit. but nvm.. sabar.

yday wen for meeting.
all okie ar. nutin much happen.
den met eusoff ard tat area also. he's spose to b there, but god knows where he went.
den he go scream my name. wtf?! haha den i scream his name also.
muahaha
den also met faizal sir from ncc. at first, he din c n im pissed lor.
urgh. hehe. den went walk some more, den he saw. den jus wave n smile ar.
. . . . . .

ok. lets tok abt nex wk.
one word. FUN!!!!
okay, lets make it three....
FUN AND BUSY!!!!!
weeeeEEEeeEEE!!

jus lookin forward for friday. i have meeting in the aftnn, den have bbq to go.
no not lookin forward for meeting, but for bbq!!!!
hehehex!!

lalalalalala

yday i play xbox, wah fuck man.
so sianz!!!!
play alone no challenge arr....
esp LOTR. must play 2 person, den fun
teehee.
eh, anione ar, who free so sian.. nothing to do, let me know
den can hang out ya'll!!!

but ar, my schedule for nex 3 wks seems to b fully booked.
okie, watever. jus contact me yaaaaaa!!

weeeeeeee!!!!!

oooh OH OH OH!!!!!!!!! TROY IS FANTASTIC!! watched wif rajvin. lol!!! yah.. coz he called n sounded panic. so i jus watch ar.
okok. lemme review it.
overall, its great. its definitely 5 out of 5. the footage, the picture, the effetcs, the props, costumes its great. reminds me of Band of Brothers. its definitely my kind of show. altoh its kinda erm, violent, its great.
and omg. i cried at one scene coz . . . shant spoil it. teehee.
eric bana is super hotness. so as brad pitt. but orlando bloom . . .kinda disappointed. haha.the way he acted his character like... a bit gay. haha.but, im sure its a difficult role.however, he shud stick to legolas.
;)
at one part, i tot its the end. like tats it. but, theres a twist to it. for those who watched already, knows wat im tokin abt. its great how they did that. i was fooled too.

it has substance. like ALL war movies.

suddenly feel like watching saving private ryan.

/ 11:55 AM

anione watch NBC.com > The Restaurant?
ive been watchin it since the first episode.
its shown on Channel i, every thursday @ 9pm.
yah, tat means its clashed with 24 on AXN.

briefly, i'll explain wat its all abt.

Rocco DiSpirito is the chef and the owner of Rocco's. and it shows behind-the-scenes look in the kitchen.. and the second episode,part of the kitchen was on fire.. and the best part is, its the first day of the opening. then like in ani restaurant, it shows how the staff work, the filtrations, the tanrums, the cursing n swearing, and it gave me 2nd tots to work in a restaurant.
in the first episode, their opening was on tat day, and they still have renovation goin on. and its like a few hrs till the first customer comes in.

one of the reasons tat it keeps me watching every week is, to ans my qn: "will this restaurant make it? will there be ani more staff in the end?"
and another reason is, the chef is ccuuuuutttteeee.........!!!!!!!!!!
hehex.

and yes, its another reality tv show.
and nope, its not the best reality tv show.
i still dun undst y i chose to watch this over 24.

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/ 11:09 AM

my diary task: today build a nest and see if a bird comes.

finally. a day wic i can REST and breathe . . .
i have ZERO plans today. and dun intend to make plans.
coz i wan to spend quality time wif my honey - xbox
or if i wan to make plans, i'll do sumtin relaxing.
lik catch a movie or play pool or sumtin. duno lar, see how.

im still kinda worried for the nex 3 wks.
will i b able to cope and not screw up?
onli time can tell.

speakin of nex 3 wks, OC is showing nex 3 wks man!
argh! its killing moi !!
but luckily its not the days wen im having camp.
wEEeeeEE.......!!!

ive been slpin in my bro's rm since i left.
and i kept staring at his bicycle.
its super cool man. and i dun know y he still doesnt cycle to clementi and do his mountain biking thingy...
prolly he's too old? or . . hehe since he is engaged, he gotta stop?
or mayb no time at all?
im so goin to take his bike and make it MINE!!!! muahahaha!

and sometin else is killing me. i dun have camera AT ALL.
my bro took it wit him.
and left me wif notin to practise on.
hehex. i feel tat my skills are deteoriating!!
heeeelllp!!

o yes! once i gt my pay, wat shud i do wif it?
1. buy cheap cheap but nice nice clothes? [tat means i'll hav a lot]
2. buy the Nike duffel bag ive been eyeing?
3. save it?

ani suggestions anione?


i miss 1e3 '00

/ 10:34 PM

instant madness.

why did i even tot of involving myself into this?
after meetings, i feel so much pressure n bcame more stressed.
maybe some of u tink this is nothin comparing to wat u all are goin tru.
and i know some of my frens are goin tru much much much more craziness. but to me this is ... duno how to say lar.
i was shocked n speechless for a moment.

its been ages since im involved in a camp.
and i cant blive im goin tru it AGAIN. and this time was I CHOSE.

i jus cant accept the fact tat im goin for ACOC.
just cant sink it in.

and i'll be having LIA camp... den the nex day is the VIC.
omg.
but im quite heng lar.. hehe not as bad as other ppl.
im kinda worried for my gran toh. she needs her injection. den its lik im the onli one who can do it.den must ask sumone else to take over me ...

besides, my bro coming bak on 5th. and its like, i cant be there.
im not there wen he went off. and im not there wen he arrive.
haish. no choice-sacrifice

/ 12:18 PM

my diary task: today learn a new knot.

yoOOoohooooOO...! yeah. blive it or not, im bz from the start of the day. like 8+am. received alot alot of sms n missed calls.i knew it will be like this coz today theres 2 meetings [CU04:3pm@Wlands Stadium & LIA:7pm@Horizon], and suddenly stuffs had piled up.

n actually NOW im spose to go to eve's n play xbox wif and ask zaid along... since i dun hav to go to ADSS to meet the RCY YO to settle sumtin.. BUT, eve told me she has appt, n zaid cant come coz he jus got called in for work n he accpeted it, n now they left me waiting for 1.15pm to meet YS n gang for lunch [but brunch for me teehee]. so its like, cancelled one plan, another new plan came up. hehex. [ok, if dun undst watever i wrote, dun bother re-reading it agn muahaha]

n i tot im workin in the morn today, but felicia told me dun hav to come.haish... den tmr? not workin...
y? coz have LIA meeting, not confirmed wat time also. and ain n me planned wana watch movie at town. not sure wat show. but ive asked zaid in advance to come along. hopefully the rest can come also.. the more the merrier! weeeEEEeee!!!

o yah. yday i read a testi my fren wrote for me, n got me tinkin n reminising the old times.. haish. in hpps, i used to play netball n i was in the sch team. tat was wen i was in a pink of health!! but now, i cant do much of those coz . . . yah, some stuff. and netball has been a part of my life for 4 yrs or so. quite sad ar, coz i missed those times wen i can run endlessly w/o panting like hell.

note to my niece. . .altoh she cant read it, but watever..
[happie 3rd bday to my adoroable niece Alya Adriana. dun b noti k? dun watch too much Disney Channel or play too much computer. auntie loves u to pieces.o yes, dun take my Kim Possible pillow. muax.]

/ 8:19 PM

my diary task: today make sure your parents know you love them. it may seem impossible to say but don't wait until it is.

orite. it has been an interestin weekend for me.

fridae was my 1st day @ work. n the journey sux until tat psychotic asshole ruined my day. urgh. some malay guy in mid 30s try to make a move on me. n i gave him fake details wen ask for my name, age, blah blah. giler siol. tak sedar diri.
so anw,it was kinda nice lar the place. but the environment of the workplace intimidates me... coz im like the onli malay i saw. but heck... i survived.
i had a great time n laughed like crazey wif joanne. hehekz.

yday spose to go to work. tapi, i hav plans wif my family n they need me to be there. it was my nieces bday party. nurin's bday was on 3rd may while alya's is this comin 18th. they had an advance party coz my bro will be leaving for wales the nex day [today]. so dun wan my bro to miss out the fun. and i watched this hindi show, Lagaan, very nice.. reminds me of A League of their Own. but its cricket instead of baseball. teehee.
spose to meet ain, eve n hanson at clarke quay at their workplace, but i hav to study for my madrasah exams.

n today, wen to madrasah by myself coz my family hav to send bro to the airport in the morn. the exam SUX siol. sirah, cannot make it. i din realli study it coz it makes me slp everytime i read it. quran oral, SUX man. ustaz taufik lar! i knew tat guy has some tricks up his sleeves.

ustaz: okay, skrg tajwid kan?
me: 0_0 huh? tapi ustaz haron nyer grp takder.
ustaz: yerlar,tapi saya lain. [wif his usual cheeky face]
me: -_- [grrr]. *rolls eyes* bismillah.
ustaz: okay, line "bi akwabiu . . .", 'ba' bertemu dgn 'wau' tanwin. aper hukumnyer?
me: erm, idgham bighuna.
ustaz: betul? [taps fingers....narrow his eyes]
me: [o shit o shit o shit] er.. yer betul.
ustaz: betul eh? tanak tukar? confirm..?
me: [i hate u lor] hmm, yerlar betul confirm. [showing him the straight face padahal tgh panik giler]
ustaz: [take his bk.. lookin at me.wif his pen...] okay, idgham bighunah eh? ok. khalas.
me: er.. rite. okie. [take his bk, put bhind n leave IMMEDIATELY]

wth man. that 10 mins feels like half an hour siol.watever lar.

hadith paper was like... goddamn.i dunno how to do some of them den exchanged ans wif nisa. muahahha. yalah! the tcher in-charge [ustaz mustafa aka tapa] tido. lol! shud hav seen his face. hilarious man.

den spose to watch movie wif freddy. but i was super lazy. besides im having pms. still havin cramps. soriler....
den all the time, i jus watch dvd n xboxing. den i left house wif family to go n c my cousin's baby. o goodness, so adorable. but i was kinda anti-social ar. jus sit there n watch tv.. refuse to eat... n jus watching the kids. very cute man. and AGAIN, my aunts n uncles said i look differently. den wen one of dem said tat, they stare at me.aper seh.... gimme a break ar. hehehe.
den aft tat go to west coast park. suddenly i get all excited. hehe. coz im goin there nex nex friday for my madrasah class gathering. and blimey! its very fun!! n nisa[madrasah] saw me but wun tell me where she is. sampai hati engkau... and im like so inspired to bring frisbee, kite, go n play soccer, jogging n relive the sporty days. *ponders* hehe.

yay! lookin forward for tat day ppl!!

n now, im goin to jus chiiiiilll . . .
tmr is another day, n im workin -_-. and nex wk will b a pretty bz wk for me. haish.


and i miss goin out wif my frens.love u guys many many

/ 2:51 PM

my diary task: invent new color

lemme see... hmmm.

im spose to go to work today.
lol! yah.. i cant blive im GOIN TO WORK.
i mean, ME.yah, ME!
every morning i'll go, "ok,lets play LOTR and kill some orcs baby!"

but tmr i'll go "i hav to go to work..DUN TOK TO ME! o for gods sakes, where is my watch?! im late!!"

like unbelievable gitu. but i din go ar.. coz jus got the news at 12nn.
and im stuck in front of tv. teehee.
and ive been watchin indiana jones dvds. yah, tats wat super free ppl do u see..
but im goin to work tmr.
i cant blive im sayin it."im goin to work tmr."
o shux.. hav to wake up super early siol.

ive been reading my hadith bk to study for exam this sun.
but u c, nutin can go in my brain while im watching tv . . .
hehe
yah..

and i still cant sink in the fact tat my bro will be leaving for Wales this sun.
urgh. hate him for tat.
he'll be bak on 6june i tink..
untill then, i'll hog his room baby!! weeeeee!!!

o yah! im spose to take my new specs today!!
buuuuuut, depends ar. if anione can send me to take it.

it has been a frickin warm n humid day. o wait, it has been like dat the pass few days.
hmm, anione in for a tan?

hahaha jkjk.
are u kiddin?! it took me a mth or so to un-tan myself n now im askin for more?!
giler. noway.. ah-ah.

o well, i'll join in for an adventure wif LXG!!

/ 10:51 PM

part two (and the final one)

i dragged myself out of my sofa bed.
im jus super tired.
and aft bathing onli i remembered i hav exam.
bengang betul lar.

den we had to change classes and all. n im wif nisa.
actually wif hafizah, but we xchanged partners.

fiqh was a breeze for me except last qn. abt process solat jenazah.
at first i did all the qns.. den the ustaz came in n told us to read the bloody arahan.
pipa betul. do onli 6 out of eight.
den thank god, i cancel the first n last qn hehe

during break hang ard wif my classmates.

blah blah blah

and i kinda dozed off during tauhid paper.
lol. yah.. n ustaz called me to tell me abt quran exam.
and i jus said ya, ok.
den i ask my fren behind wat he said lol.
bengap siol me

den we had we thingy abt the camp thingy..
and i like pissed ar.. dragged the time n all
i met ustaz taufik n told him ar, nak buat the quran thing nex wk
duh. im so unprepared! i mean, USTAZ TAUFIK siol. he is gonna grill me.
for those who dunno, its like oral.. onli more complicated. teehee.
and i begged my bro to fetch me from sch.
and he did!
yay!!

reach home liao, makan... den relak relak..
sampai tertido. n din go for maulud thingy.
n mom sorta massage my bak, wah very great feeling..
i feel loved. hehe yes manjer i know
:p
den bangun at 6+
wah syok siol

den watch tv. eat dinner.watch tv agn. now online. later watch dvd wif bro. den tido.

and i miss wearing uniforms.

/ 10:12 PM

[part one]

yday betul2 family day.

went out wif my folks, sis n her family to Snow City,West Coast Hawker Ctr, Queensway Shopping Ctr,town, Komala Villas and Mustafa Ctr.
hehehe yah

i tink it sorta like family cum mother's day
yup yup.
it was fun ar..

and i made new specs!! yay!! hehe

wen to taka den mom bot this extremely stunning manik2
i tink its a divider thingy tat u hang at the door?
yah, tat thing. entah wat its called in EL.
watever it is, its beautiful, jus like my mom
=)
den we watch the drum guys. its great man.
great feeling to be there n listen to them.
power siol they all.

den go little india to makan dinner.
i had paper masala. [ok, for those whu dunno wats tat, its not realli paper. ala, go check it out lar, lazy wana explain]
and its fuckin nice.
i always had normal masala. but paper masala was the ultimate heaven.
n i know once im at little india wif my MOM, we WILL go to mustafa ctr.
n i tell u, its so packed siol. alot of ppl.
and im dying out there. coz im friggin tired.

ok cut short.

i reached home at 12am+
and manage to jus read fiqh wif my half-opened eyes.

/ 11:44 PM

wen for NUH open hous and the hospital tour is waaaaay better den SGH.
we visited many places wic SGH din reali show.
went wif Ibnu n we had many things to catch up!
and i embarassed myself alot of times during the 'talk'
quite . . . paiseh.

aft tat met ain n eve went to NYP.
go there coz ain wana settle sometin n we ate lunch.
den there is this 'NYP Staff Corner'
and not sure if we're sitted at the rite place. hehe
alah, malas wana blog here.

den ain n me wen town to jus . . . hang.
actually im jus killing time to meet my family at airport at later time.
den wen to far east jln2 . . buang maser..
den met irna n kel.
hehe very farnie bunch.
den jus hang n tok at kfc there.. n i was watching for cars.
o lord, i can do tat the whole day.

den i rush to airport.. on the way, met freddy.
he look so shocked to c me.. tat bugger. hehe
din get to chat ar, coz firstly, malas. secondly, im rushing. thirdly, he looked SO DAMN shocked tat he dun welcome my prescence. den malas ar.. hehe

on the way to airport via mrt was a cooool journey.
i mean, tats the very first time i wen to airport via mrt!!!!!
like yay!! hehe
den reach airport, met my family.. den we jus do the normal routine..
yah.. like hugging.. how are yous... wat u doin nows... blah blah blah.
we sent off my bro's mom in law. [geddit?]

after dat balik. watch teevee. makan. now blogging. later teevee agn. den tido.

/ 8:47 PM

Wayne Wonder - Hold me now

I have a picture,
Pinned to my wall.
An image of you and of me and we're laughing and loving it all.
Look at our life now, tattered and torn.
We fuss and we fight and delight in the tears that we cry until dawn

Hold me now, warm my heart
Stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

You say I'm a dreamer, we're two of a kind
Both of us searching for some perfect world we know we'll never find
So perhaps I should leave here, yeah yeah go far away
But you know that theres no where that I'd rather be than with you here today

Hold me now, warm my heart
Stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

You ask if I love you, well what can I say?
You know that I do and if this is just one of those games that we play
So I'll sing you a new song, please don't cry anymore
And then I'll ask your forgiveness, though I don't know just what I'm asking you for

Hold me now, warm my heart
Stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

/ 8:38 PM

jus came bak from town wif haya n fana.
hehe yah..
catch 50 first dates also..
haish.
love the movie.
its so touching n sweeeeeet
yah, uve guessed it.. i cried..
but i dun tink haya n fana noticed hehe
cant help it!!!
its so sweeeeet n touching n henry roth (adam sandler) willing to wait for her
and . . . and... AR!
shant spoil for those who haven catch it hehe

o yah, met my bro in borders.
cant blive it man. of ALL places.

den went shopping
walked like forever..
and i got myself some stuff
teehee
so excited!!

aniwei, i had fun girls!!
;)

/ 10:57 AM

okie. decided to change my template into a simple one..
coz im jus too lazy to do anitin nice.
and i dun tink i will be updating tat much.. jus too lazy.

lately, been gaming wif ain n evonne.
hehe yah.. great team we will make.

o yes, last sunday wen for the wedding..
and it was jus great.
loads of ppl.. n great yummy food.
and it takes forever for me to get to my eating place from the buffet area coz everytime i turn ard, there will b someone to jus hug me n have a lil chat.
insane.

overall, great wedding.

/ 7:39 PM

fooooood... yummy foooooodd....
i ate like a pig at this wedding i jus attended. and its my close cousin ar.
so, its pretty much like everywhere i go, there will be ppl hugging n go 'eh azi!!! *hugs*'
yah..

before leaving for the nikah, i played xbox for a while. . . in my baju kurung
lol yah.. very erm... wrong and inappropriate.
yelar, pakai baju kurung abeh main xbox eh? bagus lar tu.
my bro also joined in. hehe.

i know one thing tat came out of my mind wen i step into the house was.. .
" i feel like a fool."
why bloody hell i felt like a fool?! coz instead of seeing ppl (ladies&gentlemen) wearing baju kurung n all tradition, i saw (most of the guys) in t-shirts and JEANS.
i was like! eh siol, am i attendin the rite occsion or wat? why am i all dressed up and they're not?!
i was freaking out at a moment coz everyone was staring at us (my family) wen we enter.
and we are all dressed in green. different shades of green..

and the friggin tok kadi.. i tink he went for detour or he went for a mini shopping at jurong pt.
he is sooooo late. but heck man, i enjoyed waiting. coz i was sitted and watching tv in the room.
haha yah, anti social.
and the whole time of waiting, i kept asking myself.. why are we so dressed up? are we over dressed for this occasion?
blah blah blah.
oh and thank gawd, i switched my fone to silent. coz i had a few fone calls.
he-he. not to repeat my mistake.
my fone rang during my bro's nikah, n i was rite in front. =_="".

after all the nikah process and photo taking thingy..
off we went to makan!!
orite man, sometin i look forward coz they cook themselves. yah, they cook all by themselves for this wedding.
and these ppl are the best cooks ever. not that they are cooks, their food is jus superb.
den i ate... fuuuuh! power siol. esp the ayam lemak cili padi. spicy.. I LOVE IT.

den after eating.. we ate some more.. yah..
and we ate some more...
and we [no,not eat] chat ard ar.. chat wif my aunt..
and one of them said i look different weeeee! hehehe
hopefully she meant it in a gd way =) hehe
den ppl hugging etc.
and some of them tot im my sis's daughter.
-_- not surprising toh. it simply shows tat some of my aunts dun EVEN KNOW I EXIST!!!!!!
yah.. i'll live :p

tmr no madrasah!! wooohooo!!!
and tmr my bro will go kl to hetty's house got this maulid rasul thingy..
and tmr shall go to the wedding.
yeah man.
cant wait.