in the midst of rushing for my class just now, my mom stopped me, look at me in the eye and said ...
mom: azi. mama tengok, azi macam kecik eh? me: (look at my mom with a blank face)
i seriously do not know how to react to that although, its quite obvious that i am kecik. hahah. i know behind that one stating-the-obvious comment means many other things. well, maybe its because i am hardly at home anymore. till my mom have to stop me, and take a moment to look at her little girl which once fit in her arms, now have grown. (although i am still kecik looking)
we are too busy fulfilling our dreams till we forget to spend a few minutes with the people that sacrificed ... everything. why are we so selfish sometimes? why am i so selfish?
so people, stop reading this. go watch news with your daddy. or help to choose an outfit for your mom. or have dinner with them. or just, be there for them.
♥azi / 12:54 AM
one thing i learn is not to have passion on what you do. im sorry, i mean, not to have too much passion on anything you do. neither too little. yes, anything.
passion for chocolates. passion towards your studies. passion for your career. passion towards shopping. passion for someone.
becos then you tend to hope. you tend to dream a little dream. you tend to get all enthusiastic over it. but, when you give all your unconditional love to it, somehow, everything went perfectly wrong. it starts to fall apart. it happens too fast, too slow for you to save it. and then you realised, all that little dream is falling too. all thats left, a phantom passion.
once everything has fallen, in return you've got yourself a "memorable" experience, scarred emotionally and nothing.
so what is it again that i learn? i learn not to hope ... anymore.
and in this case, passion for drama. my once undying passion for my club is now non existent. thank you for ruining our lives.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
♥azi / 8:14 PM
hey you, please take care.
love, tupai.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
♥azi / 8:55 PM
i never thought i will leave home without you - ever. but nope, i thought WRONG. that dark day happened. i left home with everything i need ... but my other half. yes, call me crazy. it meant that much to me. you meant that much to me.
I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh what a thing to do
Cuz you were all yellow
i imagined the whole world stopped cause of my carelessness. i imagined friendships and relationships with people dear to me which i forged half of my life all crashing down in front of me with that little mistake.
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow
nevertheless, i survived for that very verylongfour hours without you. i did. the pain was excruciating. you are all i can think of. but i gathered myself together, prayed and strengthen myself without you. i am sorry you were left all alone with nothingness. with solitude. with solitary. without me.
You're skin
Oh yeah you're skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
And you know
For you I'd bleed myself dry
For you I'd bleed myself dry
after lab, i took a cab for you to work things out. for you, i bleed myself dry. yes you motorola e398.
i am sorry.
Monday, February 20, 2006
♥azi / 9:15 AM
i still cannot blive there is no rehearsal today, on wednesday or saturday. i still cannot blive i can survive through without my specs during the play. i still cannot blive i sang my heart out to backstreet boys songs. i still cannot blive i hyperextend my fingers during a play. i still cannot blive the shits i went through last week. i still cannot blive the joys i went through last week.
all in all, i still cannot blive its over.
--------
woohoo! another week in february. and already have things planned for me (in advance). if you see my lil diary, you can see many things but empty slot. not action ar pls. just stating how restricted my life is ... for now at least.
oh, how i get to hang out with my frens?
if it happens to be on the same day, selfishly, MIA/cancel the other thing. thats how desperate i am when it comes to TAKING A BREAK.
so, anyone wana be me for a week? any takers?
taufik batisah's one last is STUCK in my head lar! maybe cos StageArters kept on singing for the past rehearsals. sampai battery for mic low seh. hahah.
Sunday, February 19, 2006
♥azi / 12:12 PM
yes yes, i am back after a short break. has been one helluva week. good kind, yes?
bite size updates...
thursday 160206
rehearsals in the afternoon. rocking at night!!! franz ferdinand concert was damn good i tell you. okay i duno how to say how freakin good it was, well, trust me man, ITS GREAATTTTT!!!! *pulls hair*runs around naked*swings bra*SCREAM*faints*
excuse my manners.
photos are up! go to my links and its under *flashflash*
friday 170206
the big day. happiness is production day. it was almost full house (yer lar, if only you two came. dah full kekeke). 3 minutes before show, i was breaking into cold sweat and almost go into a nervous breakdown. seriously. god knows why i felt so damn nervous.
anyhow, it went smoothly. got myself sprained right fingers, abrasion and bruises on my right knee.
and it was worth it.
many great thanks to those who came. hope you guys enjoyed the show anad may the chokin scene haunt you forever.
=p
okay, shall blog more later. i need to cut kacang panjang, goreng paru (i have to admit i am afraid of goreng paru) and prep for doa selamat.
selamats people.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
♥azi / 10:18 PM
hello kids, lets learn some vocabulary that might be useful to you angels ... there are more than one meaning to the word. being lil miss bossy, i am going to choose which one is best for you to know, yes?
good earthlings.
1. drama: A situation or succession of events in real life having the dramatic progression or emotional effect characteristic of a play.
2. passion: A powerful emotion, such as love, joy, hatred, or anger.
3. respect: To feel or show deferential regard for; esteem.
4. trust: Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing.
5. hypocrite: A person who professes beliefs and opinions that he does not hold.
6. unity: The state or quality of being one.
7. acting: To perform (a role) on the stage.
8. hope: A wish or desire accompanied by confident expectation of its fulfillment.
9. optimist: A believer in philosophical optimism.
10. assume: To take for granted; suppose.
11. sacrifice: A loss so sustained.
12. perseverence: Persistent determination.
13. demoralise: Lower someone's spirits; make downhearted.
14. happiness: Emotions experienced when in a state of well-being.
15. life: (According to Arifah) Life is a stage.
so, by next lesson i want you to memorise all these by heart. and tell me what all this have in common. nope, no clueee.. 150words compo. no questions? good good. anyone who did it right, will get a prize!
so better do it! the prize is worth every thing (= goodbye class!
♥azi / 1:27 AM
yes i was late. again. lol. sorry hors.
lets shorten the story, met. catch up on stuffs. walk the talk.
had a great time guys (=
Friday, February 10, 2006
♥azi / 9:52 PM
at times of stress, people tend to say things that state the obvious...
me: aku lapar arrrrrr .... !!! sue: OI pegi tolong paste all those on the paper! me:grumbles (so i did. using glue -_-. while i was happily pasting ...) sue: oi oi oi !!! me: what?!~ sue: kau jgn press kuat-kuat, nanti kluar banyak glue nyer...!! (me and idah look at each other) me: errrrr isnt thats what i wan it to be. kluar byk-byk? (silence) all: lolx!!!
duh lor. tekan kuat-kuat memang kluar banyak lah beb!
at times of uncontrolled enthusiaism and 'alot' of thoughts, people say the obvious things (too)
ain: eh! you watched memoirs of geisha?!!!!! me: yuppp. you? ain: yeah. jus now. my fren's dvd. wakakakaak. me: haha okie. nice riteeeee. omg i almost cried lar. ain: yeah so sweet lor. OH OH OH!! who became the other geisha ar? me: hatsumomo one is it? ain: i tink so ar. aiya duno ar. but she looks familiar ar!! she looks like an actress!! (gave ain confused look) me: she is an actress what!!! hahahahahahahhaa. both: LOLX!!
crazie people. kekeke. still love them bits and piecessss.. MUAX!
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
♥azi / 9:05 AM
parents are baccckk~! and yup, everything's back to normal.
(mom's usual rants) azi dah makan belum? cepat lar makan. dah malam ni. azi patut tahu yang tak bagus makan malam2, azi kan nurse..
(dad calls using mom's fone) maner azi? pukul braper nak balik ni? jangan lah balik malam2. azi kan dah besar, anak dara, tak manis balik malam2.
(= i cant blame them. i am their last princess. awee~
ps: we love ICAs! rrrrriiiteeee
Thursday, February 02, 2006
♥azi / 10:26 PM
met up wif my old buddies (ain, khairul, sid, ayu, andi, nj & nj's bf - alfian) jus now.
except that, khairul was a bit too pekak today. aper dey! thanks to andi and ayu for the dinner*hugs*
and i realise how much we've grown, how fast time flies, how funny i was, how long since i had a great laugh like the old times, and of course how much ive missed them.
thank god theres no jazz today. if not, wont b able to spend time wif u all. awee! hehehe.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
♥azi / 11:54 PM
thanks to nizam for saving me from that friggin praying mantis on my head. yes people, MY HEAD. there was an insect ON MY HEAD.
jeez. you have no idea how traumatised i was.
kk dah blog dah. =p
♥ azi
and as a profession, I am a follower of Florence Nightingale.
in the midst of rushing for my class just now, my mom stopped me, look at me in the eye and said ...
mom: azi. mama tengok, azi macam kecik eh? me: (look at my mom with a blank face)
i seriously do not know how to react to that although, its quite obvious that i am kecik. hahah. i know behind that one stating-the-obvious comment means many other things. well, maybe its because i am hardly at home anymore. till my mom have to stop me, and take a moment to look at her little girl which once fit in her arms, now have grown. (although i am still kecik looking)
we are too busy fulfilling our dreams till we forget to spend a few minutes with the people that sacrificed ... everything. why are we so selfish sometimes? why am i so selfish?
so people, stop reading this. go watch news with your daddy. or help to choose an outfit for your mom. or have dinner with them. or just, be there for them.
/ 12:54 AM
one thing i learn is not to have passion on what you do. im sorry, i mean, not to have too much passion on anything you do. neither too little. yes, anything.
passion for chocolates. passion towards your studies. passion for your career. passion towards shopping. passion for someone.
becos then you tend to hope. you tend to dream a little dream. you tend to get all enthusiastic over it. but, when you give all your unconditional love to it, somehow, everything went perfectly wrong. it starts to fall apart. it happens too fast, too slow for you to save it. and then you realised, all that little dream is falling too. all thats left, a phantom passion.
once everything has fallen, in return you've got yourself a "memorable" experience, scarred emotionally and nothing.
so what is it again that i learn? i learn not to hope ... anymore.
and in this case, passion for drama. my once undying passion for my club is now non existent. thank you for ruining our lives.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
/ 8:14 PM
hey you, please take care.
love, tupai.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
/ 8:55 PM
i never thought i will leave home without you - ever. but nope, i thought WRONG. that dark day happened. i left home with everything i need ... but my other half. yes, call me crazy. it meant that much to me. you meant that much to me.
I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh what a thing to do
Cuz you were all yellow
i imagined the whole world stopped cause of my carelessness. i imagined friendships and relationships with people dear to me which i forged half of my life all crashing down in front of me with that little mistake.
I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow
nevertheless, i survived for that very verylongfour hours without you. i did. the pain was excruciating. you are all i can think of. but i gathered myself together, prayed and strengthen myself without you. i am sorry you were left all alone with nothingness. with solitude. with solitary. without me.
You're skin
Oh yeah you're skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
And you know
For you I'd bleed myself dry
For you I'd bleed myself dry
after lab, i took a cab for you to work things out. for you, i bleed myself dry. yes you motorola e398.
i am sorry.
Monday, February 20, 2006
/ 9:15 AM
i still cannot blive there is no rehearsal today, on wednesday or saturday. i still cannot blive i can survive through without my specs during the play. i still cannot blive i sang my heart out to backstreet boys songs. i still cannot blive i hyperextend my fingers during a play. i still cannot blive the shits i went through last week. i still cannot blive the joys i went through last week.
all in all, i still cannot blive its over.
--------
woohoo! another week in february. and already have things planned for me (in advance). if you see my lil diary, you can see many things but empty slot. not action ar pls. just stating how restricted my life is ... for now at least.
oh, how i get to hang out with my frens?
if it happens to be on the same day, selfishly, MIA/cancel the other thing. thats how desperate i am when it comes to TAKING A BREAK.
so, anyone wana be me for a week? any takers?
taufik batisah's one last is STUCK in my head lar! maybe cos StageArters kept on singing for the past rehearsals. sampai battery for mic low seh. hahah.
Sunday, February 19, 2006
/ 12:12 PM
yes yes, i am back after a short break. has been one helluva week. good kind, yes?
bite size updates...
thursday 160206
rehearsals in the afternoon. rocking at night!!! franz ferdinand concert was damn good i tell you. okay i duno how to say how freakin good it was, well, trust me man, ITS GREAATTTTT!!!! *pulls hair*runs around naked*swings bra*SCREAM*faints*
excuse my manners.
photos are up! go to my links and its under *flashflash*
friday 170206
the big day. happiness is production day. it was almost full house (yer lar, if only you two came. dah full kekeke). 3 minutes before show, i was breaking into cold sweat and almost go into a nervous breakdown. seriously. god knows why i felt so damn nervous.
anyhow, it went smoothly. got myself sprained right fingers, abrasion and bruises on my right knee.
and it was worth it.
many great thanks to those who came. hope you guys enjoyed the show anad may the chokin scene haunt you forever.
=p
okay, shall blog more later. i need to cut kacang panjang, goreng paru (i have to admit i am afraid of goreng paru) and prep for doa selamat.
selamats people.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
/ 10:18 PM
hello kids, lets learn some vocabulary that might be useful to you angels ... there are more than one meaning to the word. being lil miss bossy, i am going to choose which one is best for you to know, yes?
good earthlings.
1. drama: A situation or succession of events in real life having the dramatic progression or emotional effect characteristic of a play.
2. passion: A powerful emotion, such as love, joy, hatred, or anger.
3. respect: To feel or show deferential regard for; esteem.
4. trust: Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing.
5. hypocrite: A person who professes beliefs and opinions that he does not hold.
6. unity: The state or quality of being one.
7. acting: To perform (a role) on the stage.
8. hope: A wish or desire accompanied by confident expectation of its fulfillment.
9. optimist: A believer in philosophical optimism.
10. assume: To take for granted; suppose.
11. sacrifice: A loss so sustained.
12. perseverence: Persistent determination.
13. demoralise: Lower someone's spirits; make downhearted.
14. happiness: Emotions experienced when in a state of well-being.
15. life: (According to Arifah) Life is a stage.
so, by next lesson i want you to memorise all these by heart. and tell me what all this have in common. nope, no clueee.. 150words compo. no questions? good good. anyone who did it right, will get a prize!
so better do it! the prize is worth every thing (= goodbye class!
/ 1:27 AM
yes i was late. again. lol. sorry hors.
lets shorten the story, met. catch up on stuffs. walk the talk.
had a great time guys (=
Friday, February 10, 2006
/ 9:52 PM
at times of stress, people tend to say things that state the obvious...
me: aku lapar arrrrrr .... !!! sue: OI pegi tolong paste all those on the paper! me:grumbles (so i did. using glue -_-. while i was happily pasting ...) sue: oi oi oi !!! me: what?!~ sue: kau jgn press kuat-kuat, nanti kluar banyak glue nyer...!! (me and idah look at each other) me: errrrr isnt thats what i wan it to be. kluar byk-byk? (silence) all: lolx!!!
duh lor. tekan kuat-kuat memang kluar banyak lah beb!
at times of uncontrolled enthusiaism and 'alot' of thoughts, people say the obvious things (too)
ain: eh! you watched memoirs of geisha?!!!!! me: yuppp. you? ain: yeah. jus now. my fren's dvd. wakakakaak. me: haha okie. nice riteeeee. omg i almost cried lar. ain: yeah so sweet lor. OH OH OH!! who became the other geisha ar? me: hatsumomo one is it? ain: i tink so ar. aiya duno ar. but she looks familiar ar!! she looks like an actress!! (gave ain confused look) me: she is an actress what!!! hahahahahahahhaa. both: LOLX!!
crazie people. kekeke. still love them bits and piecessss.. MUAX!
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
/ 9:05 AM
parents are baccckk~! and yup, everything's back to normal.
(mom's usual rants) azi dah makan belum? cepat lar makan. dah malam ni. azi patut tahu yang tak bagus makan malam2, azi kan nurse..
(dad calls using mom's fone) maner azi? pukul braper nak balik ni? jangan lah balik malam2. azi kan dah besar, anak dara, tak manis balik malam2.
(= i cant blame them. i am their last princess. awee~
ps: we love ICAs! rrrrriiiteeee
Thursday, February 02, 2006
/ 10:26 PM
met up wif my old buddies (ain, khairul, sid, ayu, andi, nj & nj's bf - alfian) jus now.
except that, khairul was a bit too pekak today. aper dey! thanks to andi and ayu for the dinner*hugs*
and i realise how much we've grown, how fast time flies, how funny i was, how long since i had a great laugh like the old times, and of course how much ive missed them.
thank god theres no jazz today. if not, wont b able to spend time wif u all. awee! hehehe.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
/ 11:54 PM
thanks to nizam for saving me from that friggin praying mantis on my head. yes people, MY HEAD. there was an insect ON MY HEAD.
