somehow i can relate to the feelings they felt during rehearsals.. when you constantly feeling frustrated, angry, feel like breaking down.. feel like quitting.. all of these are considered normal.
you feel that you're not good enough to make the show go - not good, not fantastic - glorious. people who have performed would understand what im talking about.
the pressure. the expectations. the product. the end.
is all set and depends on the way the performers perform, connect to the audience.
just watched Oprah. in the show, there are backstage scenes from the making of cirque de soleil - varekai. it brings back memories of Happiness Is.. (: but, ours is nothing compared to theirs.
hats off to you guys...
Sunday, May 29, 2005
♥azi / 6:59 PM
i trusted you.
Friday, May 27, 2005
♥azi / 10:01 PM
picture says a thousand words, they say.
Year 1s,Year 2s, staff nurse, asst nurse. student nurses MIA: hafiz, pei wen, cheng boon, bianca, vasanthi, cheng boon and hui fen. thanks to uma for taking the photo. MUAX. awwww hehe.
to see more, click here. thanks cheyannee!!!!! hehehe.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
♥azi / 9:42 PM
im going NUTS. no, the lecturer is ALREADY nuts.
today's day at attachment is really ... one nuts day sia. since the handover report sia... the male nurse. wahaha!! he seriously have the lips of angelina jolie and damn prasan sia.
and we lost a thermometer. thats when i lose my sane. i started attacking anyone who passes me saying .. "YOU!! you took the thermometer right?" "stafff nurrseee, dont sabo us lar.. i know u have it riteee??" "AUNTIEEE u took it rite? dun like that larrrrrr..." "doctor, i saw u secretly took the thermometer. cmon lar.. dun like dat LEH." "PEIWEN! i know u took it.. tats y u keep quiet rite? sians lar."
hehehehe and i duno y am i the onli one fussing over a thermometer.
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
finally its friday. and yes, alot of things happened. and my lecturer is ... nuts. the patients are ... killing us.
after lookin through the care plan, he spot a mistake and tried to give a scenario to make us (siti and me) undst. he's talking abt this nursing diagnosis and interventions.
lecturer: hmm okay. let's say i light the lighter, and put the fire on my palm. do you tink its painful? siti: yeaa.. lecturer: good.. so,what would you do to relieve the pain? me:*under my breath* leave it alone on your palm la duh. lecturer: what is it..? i cannot hear you. me: OH remove the lighter lar. lecturer: GOOooooOOD. that's right! *and when on explaining why we're right*
plus he did all this with detailed visual demonstration. yes, he did showed us his palm above a thumb (that represents the lighter) and his thumb was like wiggling (tryin to show that the fire is lighted. =_=)
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orite. so we were discussing about our patient's medical diagnosis. and our nuts lecturer do not know his stuffs.
me: his diagnosis is retromalar csc or something like that. i can't really remember. lecturer: okaayy. so, what does that mean. *pause and silence* me: errmm.. don't know. malar is the zygomatic bone *pointin to my cheek bone* ... and ... lecturer: NO. malar is not zygomatic and not the cheek bone! siti: no it IS correct lar. lecturer: NOoooo. you got it wrong, the cheek bone is maxilla (teeet! wrong.).
*after much explanation by the lecturer about what-is-what-bone, he finally figured out HE WAS WRONG ALL ALONG.*
lecturer: yes yes. you are right (THANK YOU).*started talkin to himself and touching his face tryin to figure out what bone is what*
toot lar.
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bianca and pava lost their care plan and redid a new one. so, they were explainin to our lovely lecturer why they lost it and will make a new one. and this is what he HAVE to say...
lecturer: so you lost your care plan because you left it on the trolley? bianca/pava: yessssss.... lecturer: okie.. hmm. and oh! *holds up his hand like got arrested* i am not going to touch your care plan. bianca: huh? why? lecturer: because you put it on the patient's table. and the table is not clean. so what does it mean when its not clean pava...? *still holdin up his hand* pava: .... contaminated? lecturer:* he was at the verge of being in tears. god knows why* YEEESSSSSS. you're right!!!! its contaminated!!
either this patient do not understand or he is ... unable to hear us correctly (don wan say deaf lar, not nice k? wahaha! RITE). bianca was tryin to fill in the IO chart.
bianca: hello mr tan, so what did you have for lunch? mr tan:*dreamily* OH i had this .... wah, very nice lar. bianca: okaayy. is there any meat? mr tan: its very tender. waahh.. very nice lar. bianca: oh. haha okay. that good. any vege? mr tan: OH the meat its slice slice like that. wah, very nice ar. my wife cook one. bianca: *frustrated* i see, that's good.. so did your wife put any vege in it? mr tan: im not sure what kind of meat is it lar. but its *yes, you guessed it* VERY NICE AR. you should come over my house and taste her cooking. bianca:*give up* oh, haha its okay... alright, thanks!
this is just a few of the many crazy things happened. and we've lost track on how many times our darling mr tan pressed the call bell. he thinks we have nothing better to do? he asked us for almost anything you can think of. 1. sorry ar, but can you pass to me the fone. 2. hi, could you reach for me the headphones *just beside him. he could do it with his eyes closed* 3. sorry sorry, i really dun wan to disturb you but could you bring me out for a walk? 4. hello again, i would like to have coffee please. oh wait, if you have horlicks, please do get that for me. make sure its not too hot or i'll burn my tongue and may affect my speech....... *blahs* 5. so sorry nurse, but can you please give me suppository? i tink i am having constipation. 6. eh nurse! please hurry. i need to pass motion now!!! cannot tahan loh...!! hurry ar!!
MY GAWD.
thank god i am home now. away from the call bells. away from the freaking ting tong sound from the IV pump. away from bed 7.
amin.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
♥azi / 11:06 PM
alias. in case you don't know, i am a huge fan of alias.
espionage - just like the life im in. in case you don't know, and you happen to be an alias fan, ALIAS SEASON 4 is on channel 5.
like totally. its already the third episode. hebat bangett.
more micheal vartan pleassee... ;) i shall save up $$$ for the the ultimate dvd collection - if thrs such a thing.
today gt RCY north district meeting. but cant go coz of att. aftnn shift till tmr. cant go for villa singa tmr coz of att.
thurs n fri morning shift. thurs got btt.
fri got another villa singa latihan.
sat got SA drama and maybe go ecp for reunion -_-
sun gt madrasah exam den another villa singa latihan.
bila mau gunting rambut dei...! gua mau gunting siot. cant stand it animore.
hopefully its just this wk gna suck. or even btr, hopw it wont turn out bad.
freak.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
♥azi / 6:16 PM
home. i stayed at home after madrasah.
miracle.
and i survived BIG TIME.
spose to go for drama thingy. but i din. wat is WRONG wif me? tot of goin for the duno wat another drama thingy shasha told me about. but NOooO i stayed at home.
alone.
with teevee and nutingness.
i din even go to clementi central and just walk around, reminiscing the times when i was a clementi-an. and jus walk and walk. din buy anitin. but jus walk. ok i did bought some stuff. but who cares! the point is I WAS OUTTT.
and i din attempt to get out. full stop.
UNbelivable.
i still cant blive i din go for the drama thingy. jeez.
now waitin for mom n dad to fetch me to go for nite class.
a LOVELY sunday indeed. *rolls eyes* UNbelievable. something is seriously wrong with me and i dunno WHAT. damn.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
♥azi / 11:35 PM
its either my lecturer is paranoid or ... he is being too safe?
okay, so, i put my notebook and pen on the trolley coz i wana read the case notes. and then ...
lecturer : *taps my shoulder* Er, Arifah? me : yes? lecturer :*with a concerned and god forbids - his hands starts to have spasms* Don't put your things on the trolley okay? It might be contaminated. me : oh! sorry sir.
like wth? hahahaha. i told siti and bianca about it, and i tell you, they laughed like hell. and almost got scolded by the sister. jeez.
NEVERMIND.
orite, to those who know how my specs frame looks like - GOOD. to those who doesnt, sorri eh. haha lazy wana explain.
okay, i was walkin to the staff lounge when lovely lecturer stopped me.
lecturer : Er, Arifah. *looks hard at my specs* I want to ask about your spectacles frame. me : yea sure. what is it sir? lecturer : Is it, suspended like that? Or your lens are out? me : oh! it is suspended like that sir. thats the design. macam cool ar.. cool rite? lecturer : oh yes it is. very unique. but er, is it safe? will it fall out any moment? is it secured? *i can see drops of sweat dripping from his forehead at this moment haha jk* me :*trying VERY HARD not to laugh* oh it is very safe sir. not to worry. i have this on for almost a year. *SMILES* lecturer :*sigh of relieved* Oh.. okay. That's good then. Okay, you can carry on.
goodness. talk about obsessive complusion disorder. and no, i dun call him sir. jus to protect his identity. CEH.
♥azi / 6:13 PM
Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male
Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!
"But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you"
ahem ahem. ceh! terrerr seh!
:x
♥azi / 3:48 PM
It's hard to remember how it felt before Now I found the love of my life Passes things, get more comfortable Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles It's good to see you now with someone else And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends After all that we've been through I know we're cool I know we're cool
We used to think it was impossible Now you call me by my new last name Memories seem like so long ago Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard The dreaming days where the mess was made Look how all the kids have grown, oh We have changed but we're still the same After all that we've been through I know we're cool I know we're cool
Yeah, I know we're cool
And I'll be happy for you If you can be happy for me Circles and triangles And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend So far from where we've been I know we're cool I know we're cool
C-cool, I know we're cool I know we're cool
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this song is so so stuck in my head.
haiish.
oh yea, in case you dont know, its Cool by Gwen Stefani.
cant stand the friggin lecturer in charge of us. i hate him. full stop.
totally love the staff there.
so as the patients. there are hott ones. so as the doctors. fuuh!
thirst for knowledge.
missing every one. i repeat - missingeverysingleoneofyou. and you. yes, you too .. especiallytotallyyou too. miss my bestie lar. long time nv chat wif her.
shall give some love to my leggies.
kissses ppl!
Monday, May 09, 2005
♥azi / 7:57 PM
keep your eyes open as if love could come a walkin as if everything else is meaningless, meaningless and that's the way it oughta be mysteries, especially he oh everything else is almost meaningless, meaningless oh say well i will always feel that way and if a time a change should come you'd remember my name oh say well i will always feel that way and if a time a change should come you'd remember my you'd remember my name keep your eyes open as if everyone's a poet as if everything else is meaningless, meaningless and that's the way it oughta be, yea mysteries, including me oh well everything else is almost meaningless, meaningless
(:
yes, every thing else IS meaningless.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
♥azi / 2:55 PM
so, tomoro marks the day where i will start my attachment. right now, i am at my sis's house. hence, im gna be a clementian for the next 8 wks. how exciting isnt it. watching X2.
wolverine is soo ... sexy` growl.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
♥azi / 10:18 AM
has anyone seen me nervous before?
if you do, then ... oritey then.
i really really hate it when i get nervous. come to think of it - who the hell likes the feeling aniwei?!?! goodness. me being nervous will lead to the most embarassing things i would ever do. like so the URGH.
yday went to this drama thingy. and we had to introduce ourselves. easy rite? well, it IS easy. but NOT EASY when you hav to do it in MALAY.
mak kau~ darah terus meresap siot. vital signs became abnormal. no kiddin, i felt my pulse shoot up to at least 150bpm.
den you will have that desire to fidget and suddenly became all very thirsty. start to develop cold sweats. and again - fidgeting. shivering or maybe trembling. i even thought i will faint cause i felt claustraphobic (watever lar eh the spelling) the bloody bug that was approaching me isnt helping either.
dah lar ader satu super cutie guy OMG damn cute i tell you. really man, his prescence isnt helping too - which totally made me stumble, fumble, stutter, gagap nak mampos, lots of 'arr,err,mmm' during the intro.
bottom line - made a fool out of myself.
on the way home, i blasted super loud music. whatever rock music i have. goodness. its an alternative to twix. i would totally eat chox man. but no chox - turn to super loud loud loud music. i felt so so stressed and confused when i got the schedule. good good music.. haiish.the remedy to that anxiety/stressed/macam nak pengsan feeling.
shoot. hate it so much. very very much. shall hide in my shoe box now.
Friday, May 06, 2005
♥azi / 11:55 PM
orite. i duno when was the last time i feel so complicated.
right now, all i wanna do is run. run and run. run around the track.. over the fountain... across the mountain... pass by Mambo store...
run and run and run.
with Franz Ferdinand playin in my player.
and keep on running.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
♥azi / 9:49 PM
i am so sick of being vicitmised by all of your shits. sorry, WE are so SICK of being victimised by YOU. no seriously, stop it. stop being disgustingly hypocritical. asslickin/sucking up/or watever nonsense its called .. no, it doesnt work that way bitch. hell no it doesnt. dont assume. dont claim. stop claimin every one is your best friend. coz wake up gerl, you stand alone. alone with all the moss, mushrooms some fungus around you. nope, rainbows or pot of gold doesnt exist for you. parasite? nah, you're the parasite. eating each and every one of us. den goin into other people. note the word 'into'. goodness, its sad being you isnt it? oh im sorry for what you are then. oh im sorry for what you now. but my freaky darling, i wont be sorry for what you are tomoro. so come and try to suck me up with your parasite powers. you wont see me move a muscle. no you wont make me feel oh-so-top of the mountain, having picnic with a lil daisy by my side. cause all you will get is deceit.
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there!
let it all out.
(:
once again, this entry doesnt direct to anyone.
well, theres a sayin in malay "who ate the chilli, will taste the spice"
or sumtin like that.
now, you dont wan me to be mean to you ...
DONT YOU?
oh! thankx to nj darl for helpin me find the last word.
kisses!
♥azi / 9:16 PM
aku sedih.
sedih aku.
aku dalam kesedihan.
aku telah mati dalam kesedihan.
lemas ... tenggelam dalam kesedihan.
i am sad.
oh my, i am sad.
sadness eats me inside out.
drowned in sadness.
sadness killed me.
ceh, macam macam aku ni. takderlar, tak sedih. cumer pasrah. ceh! no lar.
haish.
no, im not confusing you am i?
yea, i tink i am.
haish.
♥azi / 5:35 PM
:)
yes, to those who know about it - hell yeaaa. doesnt it feel GREAT to know you're not alone? to know that we were all thinkin about the SAME THING and NOT say it out? to think that others won't think the same thing?
confused? oh well, joyah, sheeshut, new member - you guys would totally undst.
*squeals*
Monday, May 02, 2005
♥azi / 10:07 PM
world. *beams* please meet my nephew - Ahmad Syukri B Muhammad Nurazhan.
now i cant wait to go ask him to game with me. or play soccer wif him (although i dun..) or tell him tips on how to get a gerL. or do what an aunt do when she has a nephew.
wahaha! okay. shoosh. behold syukri, you're SO lucky to have a cool aunt. ;)
♥azi / 3:52 AM
to those who have been wondering where the heck was arifah for the past few days...
well, i was at kl. and i just came back. feeling so burnt out. the ride from kl to jb was 2hrs 30mins.
but the ride from jb to home was ... 3hrs.
goddamn jam.
im nuts. im blogging at this hour. oh oh! and im gonna have a new family member!! a baby lah. duno when he/she will be out. im SO excited.
bleahs. hit the covers now and do my zzzz's.
ps: miss ya loads.
♥ azi
and as a profession, I am a follower of Florence Nightingale.
somehow i can relate to the feelings they felt during rehearsals.. when you constantly feeling frustrated, angry, feel like breaking down.. feel like quitting.. all of these are considered normal.
you feel that you're not good enough to make the show go - not good, not fantastic - glorious. people who have performed would understand what im talking about.
the pressure. the expectations. the product. the end.
is all set and depends on the way the performers perform, connect to the audience.
just watched Oprah. in the show, there are backstage scenes from the making of cirque de soleil - varekai. it brings back memories of Happiness Is.. (: but, ours is nothing compared to theirs.
hats off to you guys...
Sunday, May 29, 2005
/ 6:59 PM
i trusted you.
Friday, May 27, 2005
/ 10:01 PM
picture says a thousand words, they say.
Year 1s,Year 2s, staff nurse, asst nurse. student nurses MIA: hafiz, pei wen, cheng boon, bianca, vasanthi, cheng boon and hui fen. thanks to uma for taking the photo. MUAX. awwww hehe.
to see more, click here. thanks cheyannee!!!!! hehehe.
Thursday, May 26, 2005
/ 9:42 PM
im going NUTS. no, the lecturer is ALREADY nuts.
today's day at attachment is really ... one nuts day sia. since the handover report sia... the male nurse. wahaha!! he seriously have the lips of angelina jolie and damn prasan sia.
and we lost a thermometer. thats when i lose my sane. i started attacking anyone who passes me saying .. "YOU!! you took the thermometer right?" "stafff nurrseee, dont sabo us lar.. i know u have it riteee??" "AUNTIEEE u took it rite? dun like that larrrrrr..." "doctor, i saw u secretly took the thermometer. cmon lar.. dun like dat LEH." "PEIWEN! i know u took it.. tats y u keep quiet rite? sians lar."
hehehehe and i duno y am i the onli one fussing over a thermometer.
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
finally its friday. and yes, alot of things happened. and my lecturer is ... nuts. the patients are ... killing us.
after lookin through the care plan, he spot a mistake and tried to give a scenario to make us (siti and me) undst. he's talking abt this nursing diagnosis and interventions.
lecturer: hmm okay. let's say i light the lighter, and put the fire on my palm. do you tink its painful? siti: yeaa.. lecturer: good.. so,what would you do to relieve the pain? me:*under my breath* leave it alone on your palm la duh. lecturer: what is it..? i cannot hear you. me: OH remove the lighter lar. lecturer: GOOooooOOD. that's right! *and when on explaining why we're right*
plus he did all this with detailed visual demonstration. yes, he did showed us his palm above a thumb (that represents the lighter) and his thumb was like wiggling (tryin to show that the fire is lighted. =_=)
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orite. so we were discussing about our patient's medical diagnosis. and our nuts lecturer do not know his stuffs.
me: his diagnosis is retromalar csc or something like that. i can't really remember. lecturer: okaayy. so, what does that mean. *pause and silence* me: errmm.. don't know. malar is the zygomatic bone *pointin to my cheek bone* ... and ... lecturer: NO. malar is not zygomatic and not the cheek bone! siti: no it IS correct lar. lecturer: NOoooo. you got it wrong, the cheek bone is maxilla (teeet! wrong.).
*after much explanation by the lecturer about what-is-what-bone, he finally figured out HE WAS WRONG ALL ALONG.*
lecturer: yes yes. you are right (THANK YOU).*started talkin to himself and touching his face tryin to figure out what bone is what*
toot lar.
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bianca and pava lost their care plan and redid a new one. so, they were explainin to our lovely lecturer why they lost it and will make a new one. and this is what he HAVE to say...
lecturer: so you lost your care plan because you left it on the trolley? bianca/pava: yessssss.... lecturer: okie.. hmm. and oh! *holds up his hand like got arrested* i am not going to touch your care plan. bianca: huh? why? lecturer: because you put it on the patient's table. and the table is not clean. so what does it mean when its not clean pava...? *still holdin up his hand* pava: .... contaminated? lecturer:* he was at the verge of being in tears. god knows why* YEEESSSSSS. you're right!!!! its contaminated!!
either this patient do not understand or he is ... unable to hear us correctly (don wan say deaf lar, not nice k? wahaha! RITE). bianca was tryin to fill in the IO chart.
bianca: hello mr tan, so what did you have for lunch? mr tan:*dreamily* OH i had this .... wah, very nice lar. bianca: okaayy. is there any meat? mr tan: its very tender. waahh.. very nice lar. bianca: oh. haha okay. that good. any vege? mr tan: OH the meat its slice slice like that. wah, very nice ar. my wife cook one. bianca: *frustrated* i see, that's good.. so did your wife put any vege in it? mr tan: im not sure what kind of meat is it lar. but its *yes, you guessed it* VERY NICE AR. you should come over my house and taste her cooking. bianca:*give up* oh, haha its okay... alright, thanks!
this is just a few of the many crazy things happened. and we've lost track on how many times our darling mr tan pressed the call bell. he thinks we have nothing better to do? he asked us for almost anything you can think of. 1. sorry ar, but can you pass to me the fone. 2. hi, could you reach for me the headphones *just beside him. he could do it with his eyes closed* 3. sorry sorry, i really dun wan to disturb you but could you bring me out for a walk? 4. hello again, i would like to have coffee please. oh wait, if you have horlicks, please do get that for me. make sure its not too hot or i'll burn my tongue and may affect my speech....... *blahs* 5. so sorry nurse, but can you please give me suppository? i tink i am having constipation. 6. eh nurse! please hurry. i need to pass motion now!!! cannot tahan loh...!! hurry ar!!
MY GAWD.
thank god i am home now. away from the call bells. away from the freaking ting tong sound from the IV pump. away from bed 7.
amin.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
/ 11:06 PM
alias. in case you don't know, i am a huge fan of alias.
espionage - just like the life im in. in case you don't know, and you happen to be an alias fan, ALIAS SEASON 4 is on channel 5.
like totally. its already the third episode. hebat bangett.
more micheal vartan pleassee... ;) i shall save up $$$ for the the ultimate dvd collection - if thrs such a thing.
today gt RCY north district meeting. but cant go coz of att. aftnn shift till tmr. cant go for villa singa tmr coz of att.
thurs n fri morning shift. thurs got btt.
fri got another villa singa latihan.
sat got SA drama and maybe go ecp for reunion -_-
sun gt madrasah exam den another villa singa latihan.
bila mau gunting rambut dei...! gua mau gunting siot. cant stand it animore.
hopefully its just this wk gna suck. or even btr, hopw it wont turn out bad.
freak.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
/ 6:16 PM
home. i stayed at home after madrasah.
miracle.
and i survived BIG TIME.
spose to go for drama thingy. but i din. wat is WRONG wif me? tot of goin for the duno wat another drama thingy shasha told me about. but NOooO i stayed at home.
alone.
with teevee and nutingness.
i din even go to clementi central and just walk around, reminiscing the times when i was a clementi-an. and jus walk and walk. din buy anitin. but jus walk. ok i did bought some stuff. but who cares! the point is I WAS OUTTT.
and i din attempt to get out. full stop.
UNbelivable.
i still cant blive i din go for the drama thingy. jeez.
now waitin for mom n dad to fetch me to go for nite class.
a LOVELY sunday indeed. *rolls eyes* UNbelievable. something is seriously wrong with me and i dunno WHAT. damn.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
/ 11:35 PM
its either my lecturer is paranoid or ... he is being too safe?
okay, so, i put my notebook and pen on the trolley coz i wana read the case notes. and then ...
lecturer : *taps my shoulder* Er, Arifah? me : yes? lecturer :*with a concerned and god forbids - his hands starts to have spasms* Don't put your things on the trolley okay? It might be contaminated. me : oh! sorry sir.
like wth? hahahaha. i told siti and bianca about it, and i tell you, they laughed like hell. and almost got scolded by the sister. jeez.
NEVERMIND.
orite, to those who know how my specs frame looks like - GOOD. to those who doesnt, sorri eh. haha lazy wana explain.
okay, i was walkin to the staff lounge when lovely lecturer stopped me.
lecturer : Er, Arifah. *looks hard at my specs* I want to ask about your spectacles frame. me : yea sure. what is it sir? lecturer : Is it, suspended like that? Or your lens are out? me : oh! it is suspended like that sir. thats the design. macam cool ar.. cool rite? lecturer : oh yes it is. very unique. but er, is it safe? will it fall out any moment? is it secured? *i can see drops of sweat dripping from his forehead at this moment haha jk* me :*trying VERY HARD not to laugh* oh it is very safe sir. not to worry. i have this on for almost a year. *SMILES* lecturer :*sigh of relieved* Oh.. okay. That's good then. Okay, you can carry on.
goodness. talk about obsessive complusion disorder. and no, i dun call him sir. jus to protect his identity. CEH.
/ 6:13 PM
Your Brain is 73.33% Female, 26.67% Male
Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!
"But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you"
ahem ahem. ceh! terrerr seh!
:x
/ 3:48 PM
It's hard to remember how it felt before Now I found the love of my life Passes things, get more comfortable Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles It's good to see you now with someone else And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends After all that we've been through I know we're cool I know we're cool
We used to think it was impossible Now you call me by my new last name Memories seem like so long ago Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard The dreaming days where the mess was made Look how all the kids have grown, oh We have changed but we're still the same After all that we've been through I know we're cool I know we're cool
Yeah, I know we're cool
And I'll be happy for you If you can be happy for me Circles and triangles And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend So far from where we've been I know we're cool I know we're cool
C-cool, I know we're cool I know we're cool
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this song is so so stuck in my head.
haiish.
oh yea, in case you dont know, its Cool by Gwen Stefani.
cant stand the friggin lecturer in charge of us. i hate him. full stop.
totally love the staff there.
so as the patients. there are hott ones. so as the doctors. fuuh!
thirst for knowledge.
missing every one. i repeat - missingeverysingleoneofyou. and you. yes, you too .. especiallytotallyyou too. miss my bestie lar. long time nv chat wif her.
shall give some love to my leggies.
kissses ppl!
Monday, May 09, 2005
/ 7:57 PM
keep your eyes open as if love could come a walkin as if everything else is meaningless, meaningless and that's the way it oughta be mysteries, especially he oh everything else is almost meaningless, meaningless oh say well i will always feel that way and if a time a change should come you'd remember my name oh say well i will always feel that way and if a time a change should come you'd remember my you'd remember my name keep your eyes open as if everyone's a poet as if everything else is meaningless, meaningless and that's the way it oughta be, yea mysteries, including me oh well everything else is almost meaningless, meaningless
(:
yes, every thing else IS meaningless.
Sunday, May 08, 2005
/ 2:55 PM
so, tomoro marks the day where i will start my attachment. right now, i am at my sis's house. hence, im gna be a clementian for the next 8 wks. how exciting isnt it. watching X2.
wolverine is soo ... sexy` growl.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
/ 10:18 AM
has anyone seen me nervous before?
if you do, then ... oritey then.
i really really hate it when i get nervous. come to think of it - who the hell likes the feeling aniwei?!?! goodness. me being nervous will lead to the most embarassing things i would ever do. like so the URGH.
yday went to this drama thingy. and we had to introduce ourselves. easy rite? well, it IS easy. but NOT EASY when you hav to do it in MALAY.
mak kau~ darah terus meresap siot. vital signs became abnormal. no kiddin, i felt my pulse shoot up to at least 150bpm.
den you will have that desire to fidget and suddenly became all very thirsty. start to develop cold sweats. and again - fidgeting. shivering or maybe trembling. i even thought i will faint cause i felt claustraphobic (watever lar eh the spelling) the bloody bug that was approaching me isnt helping either.
dah lar ader satu super cutie guy OMG damn cute i tell you. really man, his prescence isnt helping too - which totally made me stumble, fumble, stutter, gagap nak mampos, lots of 'arr,err,mmm' during the intro.
bottom line - made a fool out of myself.
on the way home, i blasted super loud music. whatever rock music i have. goodness. its an alternative to twix. i would totally eat chox man. but no chox - turn to super loud loud loud music. i felt so so stressed and confused when i got the schedule. good good music.. haiish.the remedy to that anxiety/stressed/macam nak pengsan feeling.
shoot. hate it so much. very very much. shall hide in my shoe box now.
Friday, May 06, 2005
/ 11:55 PM
orite. i duno when was the last time i feel so complicated.
right now, all i wanna do is run. run and run. run around the track.. over the fountain... across the mountain... pass by Mambo store...
run and run and run.
with Franz Ferdinand playin in my player.
and keep on running.
Thursday, May 05, 2005
/ 9:49 PM
i am so sick of being vicitmised by all of your shits. sorry, WE are so SICK of being victimised by YOU. no seriously, stop it. stop being disgustingly hypocritical. asslickin/sucking up/or watever nonsense its called .. no, it doesnt work that way bitch. hell no it doesnt. dont assume. dont claim. stop claimin every one is your best friend. coz wake up gerl, you stand alone. alone with all the moss, mushrooms some fungus around you. nope, rainbows or pot of gold doesnt exist for you. parasite? nah, you're the parasite. eating each and every one of us. den goin into other people. note the word 'into'. goodness, its sad being you isnt it? oh im sorry for what you are then. oh im sorry for what you now. but my freaky darling, i wont be sorry for what you are tomoro. so come and try to suck me up with your parasite powers. you wont see me move a muscle. no you wont make me feel oh-so-top of the mountain, having picnic with a lil daisy by my side. cause all you will get is deceit.
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there!
let it all out.
(:
once again, this entry doesnt direct to anyone.
well, theres a sayin in malay "who ate the chilli, will taste the spice"
or sumtin like that.
now, you dont wan me to be mean to you ...
DONT YOU?
oh! thankx to nj darl for helpin me find the last word.
kisses!
/ 9:16 PM
aku sedih.
sedih aku.
aku dalam kesedihan.
aku telah mati dalam kesedihan.
lemas ... tenggelam dalam kesedihan.
i am sad.
oh my, i am sad.
sadness eats me inside out.
drowned in sadness.
sadness killed me.
ceh, macam macam aku ni. takderlar, tak sedih. cumer pasrah. ceh! no lar.
haish.
no, im not confusing you am i?
yea, i tink i am.
haish.
/ 5:35 PM
:)
yes, to those who know about it - hell yeaaa. doesnt it feel GREAT to know you're not alone? to know that we were all thinkin about the SAME THING and NOT say it out? to think that others won't think the same thing?
confused? oh well, joyah, sheeshut, new member - you guys would totally undst.
*squeals*
Monday, May 02, 2005
/ 10:07 PM
world. *beams* please meet my nephew - Ahmad Syukri B Muhammad Nurazhan.
now i cant wait to go ask him to game with me. or play soccer wif him (although i dun..) or tell him tips on how to get a gerL. or do what an aunt do when she has a nephew.
wahaha! okay. shoosh. behold syukri, you're SO lucky to have a cool aunt. ;)
/ 3:52 AM
to those who have been wondering where the heck was arifah for the past few days...
well, i was at kl. and i just came back. feeling so burnt out. the ride from kl to jb was 2hrs 30mins.
but the ride from jb to home was ... 3hrs.
goddamn jam.
im nuts. im blogging at this hour. oh oh! and im gonna have a new family member!! a baby lah. duno when he/she will be out. im SO excited.
