morning wen for madrasah. and my god, mite as well dun dtg seh. coz theres like a handful of us. and the friggin haji guy so the irritating!!! and i purposely throw sarcastic and rude remarks. hehe
fuuuuunn..... and onli fana, sal n me came out of the 5 cool girls. sigh. but nvm! still had fun ya'll!!
den rush home.. gedebak gedebuk. change clothes all.. den met up wif nas first. den took our sweet time to meet the others. haha. actually dun hav to mt the rest, but since we all are late, den jus go lorr.. reach liao, dorang semuer ask y i look very feminine.
-_-
nvm nvm. haha must shock them once in a while.
hahaha hehehe hohoho
den in the mrt, nas n me like kecoh siol. haha. make eusoff listen to nas sarawak guy story. den the rest gang up against us. wth. hahaha.
so, nas n me purposely throw sarcastic remarks and comments (again) hehehe.
how cool are we... ;)
met up wif daniel and kevin sir at novena mrt and makan at pizza hut!!!
weeeeeeee!!! so fun man.. we chat chat.. omg. such a great hang out.. love it many many.
aft tat, went play pool wif the rest.. heheh
long time nv play ar, so like rusty. hahaha. weeeeee!!!! quite fun ar, den saw cute guy.. *grins* but must keep my cool, like kevin sir said. ahem ahem.
aft tat, we head bak to wlands.. i wanted to tukar the baju frm gio ar, coz my mom ask me to change size. but takde. sians. so mus go agn looorrr.....
den met france, end up go macs n chat chat some more. hehehe.
aft tat balik. weeeeee!!! special thx to kevin sir for everything!!!
and i cant wait till sch starts!!!
:D
Friday, June 25, 2004
♥azi / 10:42 PM
:)
You're the classic smiley
You're well-known and always cheery. You're just an all-around friendly person! You are loyal and can be trusted with a secret. Many people admire you.
a href="http://www21.brinkster.com/laurenn/smileyquiz.html" target="_new">What online smiley are YOU?!
camp ended last 2 days. and im not gonna blog anitin abt it.
im jus too tired to tink abt it aniwei.
o wells, nex week is my orientation. kinda excited and cant blive tat im startin sch soon. sians. hehe
and im still feeling sleepy. ZZzzzZZZz.
yday had a nice chat wif freddy,pb n khai. and got to know ALOT of *ahem* politics. i jus realise tat the real world is cruel. haish.
ish crap, now i dun feel like blogging.
yawnz.
♥azi / 12:27 PM
Which [Diamond Shapes] are you?
Sunday, June 20, 2004
♥azi / 12:26 AM
this is just great.
things just got worst to worster
argh.
now shall blog abt wat happen b4 i got the friggin assholic news.
morning ard 9am, mr kevin sent us (stella & me) to the schs to collect the log stuff.
pb spose to come.. but he *ahem* decided to rest longer.
o well, in the end, he joined us at a later time.
den hang at wgs to settle the stuffs.
aft tat, went lunch wif pb. waited like god knows how long for the rest (nj&ig) to go to queensway. on the way there, pb read the proposals stuff. ig did his SS revision *koffGEEKkoff* and nj ... jus.. read her notes and got distracted by the surroundings outside hehehe. as for me, i listened to radio and jus chill...
reach there liao (and met evonne), walk aimlessly to find nj's shoe. but in the end, we din. haha
so, pb & i collect the plaque thingy. and i wanted to get a top tat ive been eyeing on last thurday. but NO. ITS CLOSED!!!! argh. so sad man.den walk ard some more..
and this IGNATIOUS kept on disappearing. goodness, it shud b ME whois disappearing haha. he shud wear a leash nex time. teehee.
and in the end, decided to go town. we spent at least 10mins fig out/comtemplating/arguing on how to go to town/shud go to town. haha. yah.. and we (or mayb onli ME) sat at the steps and blocked the way. teehee.
found out how to go, we waited for the bus for ages. kaoz.
reach town alredy, we decided to go to far east. yah.. den went in and duno where to go. my goodness. can die man. den jus walk ard lookin for shoes and controlling temptations. and i also search for the top tat i wanted to get. argh.
kenaper kau tutup kedai!!!!!!??????!!! sampai hati patik!!!!! but o well, life goes on. hehe anw, pb is also tryin to fig out if he shud go for NDC campfire. until to a point tat we had to toss coins. hahaha. yah..
so we left town without buyin anitin. haish. *like tats new -_-* den on the way bak to wlands (and pb finally left for campsite), we're fig out if we shud meet ain at work. hahaha. yah.. but since we're such lazy bums, we met her at cwp.
o yah! in the mrt, nj & i played this snowball fight game in eve's fone.hehe fun fun fun. den we took pix.. and we kinda pissed this old lady coz we were pushing each other while sitting (yah, how immature hehehe).
reach cwp, we sorta walk ard to look for nj's shoe. BUT in the end, we bought ourselves (nj & me) a bag!!! PUMA BAG!!!! yay!!! omg. i felt so orgasmic wen i used it. hahahaaha.
yah i cant wait to use it, until i actually transfer all my stuff at the new bag. hahhahaha. very farnie.. it looks as toh we're smuggling sumtin teeeheeee.
we went makan at BK and AIN CAME!! yaaaay!!!!
chatted here n there.. den we decided to go bak to royal sporting house (tats where i bot my bag). but i dun wan to enter, coz im actually carrying the bag tat i jus bot. hahahaaha. how shameless.
yah.. den i jus hang ard sum other place while the rest wen in. den we walk ard sum more.. basically we covered most of the shops in cwp ar. and we went to the shops more than once.. like sportslink,royal sporting house,the craft...) o yah, den eve insist in showing me this $12 shoe bag (yes, u saw it right, $12) at royal sporting house. blooody hell. den i quickly wen in the shop wif my hand covering the bag. den quickly out. haha. ya lar!! paiseh siaaaaa.
den we end the day by taking a neoprint!!! yeah!!!
:):)
and i jus love my new bag. *hugs PUMA*
and yeah.. jus wen i tot of celebrating, sum interesting news came in. like we're not stress enuf. o watever...
i know we can do it eventually.so despite all those shits, we hav to do it as a team.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
♥azi / 8:39 PM
im overloaded with information in my brain.
i need braincells.
i jus did some frenster thingy.. and i almost fainted.
no, no hot guys involved. but amazed by the number of henry parkers who are in rj.
im not bragging, but, i envy them.
i mean, we're from the same cool cool super cool sch, and we end up different places.
haish.
and it sorta reminded me of the bad memories in henry park.
im not such a good girl in hpps aniwei. nor am i as outspoken like how i am now.
and all the fights i get into.. i mean, not the blood shedding kinda fight.
but the childish fights. hahaha.
and the erm, bad record i got. i kinda got blacklisted coz of sumtin i done together wif my super cool frens (whom i shant mention coz of the bad record hehe). mind you, i kinda got a nice heart-to-heart session wif Mrs Dorai (our lovely hpps VP). so yah, im not a goody 2 shoes okie..
all i can remember the good times i had was the netball trainings.
wow. jus fantastic. tats the only time i know i get to be wild and crazy and run as much as i can. damn i miss those times..
and wen i went to evg, like WOAH. things sorta got interesting. hehe.
and here i am, panickin on the camp unity stuff.
o dear, hopefully everything will be a-okie.
urgh.
just one more camp, and i will be able to breathe easily.
just wen i get to know the ans, then i will be able to wear my HQ red cross uniform with pride and glory.
♥azi / 7:38 PM
hmm. i wish can go jogging agn. hehe
yah yday morn went jogging wit Nj den met ig for breakfast
lol!
i know, jog liao, den makan. ish ish.
jus feel like jogging n settin myself free n jus shut myself from anitin else.
lalalala
now house feels so empty, my nieces,bro n sis not here.
haish.
o yah, yday i also watched the greece vs spain match.
im not a big fan, the onli reason im watchin it is to pass time until my lovely CSI is on. and its kinda entertaining aft a while coz, my god, the players are god sent!
such beautiful creatures!! esp from spain.
my my... i dun mind watching them, but i need to watch CSI BADLY.. hehe
honestly, i dun undst how soccer is all abt. i mean, the rules n stuff ar..
zero knowledge.
i watch the players, not the game
;)
how i wish i can b the first aiders there. omg. i tink I will faint first.
teehee.
jus now wen to buy log stuff for CU camp. kinda fun ar..
coz i know i met my ex-hubby, Cooper. o dear god, such great engine.
haha
mr kevin also very nice.. haha he treat us at swensen's.. yumz siol.
and i tink he is the onli one knows my true colors. haha
coz i kept on tokin abt guys and such.
hehehex
wat to do.. its my *ahem* first day.
muahaha.....!!
ok. now waiting for OC and jus slacking.
o shit. i cant, i need to send emails.
o tidaak! aku tak percaya.. AZURA!!!
♥azi / 10:13 AM
my diary task: women only day
my sis just left for kl.
o how much i envy her... she's there not for a vacation, but for further studies at Universiti Malaya.
i wonder when she'll be bak to sg for a break.
and i will totally undst y she wont come bak (duh! theres PS,Masjid India st, KLCC, Putrajaya - all cheap cheap bargains god damn it!) and thank goodness i din get to go, i'll prolly burn all pockets with the shopping spree. teehee.
yday spent the last, quality time wif my sis at town.
muahaha.
nah, din buy anitin, jus window shopping. and she buy some stuff to be brought to kl.
one of our must-stops is Borders. and i totally fell in love wif the cashier guy.
*faints* hahaha
and no doubt, i found the love of my life ...
Mr Vanquish himself.
oh dear, his sleek body just take my breath AWAY!
no- SERIOUSLY.
*fans myself*
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
♥azi / 8:49 PM
my diary task: today get someone famous to autograph your diary
okie. im depressed. so this will be another nasty entry which i will have at least once a mth.
so pls, bear with me. its very unlike of me to have this kind of entry.
but, no choice. i nd to voice out.
fuck the world.
no really, fuck.
why must it be like this?
why must there be comparison?
why must there be hurt or pain?
already it is not enough being in a competitive environment, there must be more of this fucking problems?
oh fuck the world.
why?! oh fucking shit why???
and YOU.
why must YOU exist in MY world?
you come and go.. and oh, why did i even CARE......
fuck off okie?
jus go away from ME.
AWAY.
thank goodness i will be moving.
selfishly, its also becoz of YOU, you fucking shit you.
you think its fun isnt it, to come and go like nothing happened.
such a FRIEND are u?
who am i to you NOW?
fuck. nothing.
i stupidly still regard you as my friend you fucker.
fuck.
im ashamed to admit i am gullible and naive and innocent.
whatever.
you're history.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
♥azi / 8:50 PM
ok, when u know someone has more than 1 or 2 posts per day, that person is friggin bored.
and that person is none other than me.
haish. so sian.
after the doa selamat, i kinda slept n woke up at 6pm.
wah.. syoook.
anw, i watched rugby match jus now. scotland vs aussie. my god, its as good as watching band of brothers. very action pack and kinda violent. felt disgusted after a while. i wonder how huge are those guys. if i were to stand beside ani1 of them, i swear i'll feel micro man.
and i had to giv my nieces a bath. kaoz, like doing 2.4km man. hahaha i know im exaggerating. but watever. this little devils keep on running ard and instead of me giving them a bath, i got wet. -_- seriously man. but it was fun ar. haha.
my sis told me the whole family will b goin to kl nex thurs and onli b bak on the 25th. wassup wif tat man?! urgh. i wana go too!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i cant, coz i have CU camp.
bleah.
now, im dlding songs for my lurvely fren eusoff. he owe me BK meal(s) . hohoho.
♥azi / 12:01 PM
my diary task: share someone's pain today
morning morning.
woke up with aches and pains, nothing new.
so, yday was kinda dramatic.
went campsite for evac gold accred, and picked up stella,linda and michelle.
hehex she was kinda late, and my dad kinda bingit. grrr.
we reach there on time toh..
the accred lesson was interesting. . . ambulance drills esp. teehee.
o well, off to lunch aft tat.. CU had a lil meeting and erm, i duno, the atmosphere was cold and hostile due to some 'disagreements' i assume.
off bak for accred. and i waited donkey years for my turn. i mean, they shud let the royal highness go first rite? *shakes head* o yah! at one pt, it was kinda tempting to psuh pb down the slope when he was on the ambulance stretcher (theres a proper name for it, but i forgot :p) hahaha hehehe hohoho
and we waited some more for the results till 6+.
den wen for dinner.. actually, me n michelle kinda reluctant at first. of course la, feel so extra and like erm.. extra. so we jus stick together. yeah!
o yah!! had a ride in the ambulance to marine parade. interesting ride.. haha. theres like 10 ppl at the bak i tink. haha. cant blive it.
anws, we makan kat parkway parade banquet aft lookin for places to eat. miss tat place.
and yes!! i ate carrot cake using chopsticks!! woohoooo!!! azi rox! realli test my patience man.. but it was a great feeling!! yay!!
aft tat they all wen toilet, den we like fig out where to go aft tat. reminds me of the 4e1's '03 hahaha. walkwalkwalk, stop. toktoktok,discussdiscussdiscuss. den move on. and its like a cycle. hahaha.
they sorta spoke chinese. but i dun care, coz i wana learn u see. so i jus sit n observe. hehe. no realli! i dun mind at all!! since i have a lot of chi frens, i kinda undst wat they said, and mite jus learn from jus listening. *beams* in the end, we decided to go ecp to PR. again, i was reluctant to go.
but, yah, i went lar.. den go to ecp play polar bear game. gawd. chaotic siol. equivalent to CU meeting. onli it is more civilised teehee. den play er.. truth or truth.
but most of the time i was staring at the sky. it was such a breathtaking sight. stunningly beautiful. it was amazing. and i was tinkin of . . . things tat made me tink.
and jus went i tot i was having the time of my life, it went frantic.
my bestest fren in the whole world-ain, called pb and ask where am i blah blah. den called my sis.. blah blah.
i panicked.
i cant sit still.
i jus wana get out of there. took cab home wif ys n stella.
once i reached home, no one was awake except for my mom. and the rest is history :p
to all 'involved' in the search party, sori for ani trouble caused and thx so much for your concern. *hugs*
and now, waiting for kenduri for my sis who will be leaving for KL and will onli come bak nex 3 yrs. [i tink i used too much 'for']
tmr theres CU meeting and i wana hang out wif my sis b4 she leave.
*sniff*
Friday, June 11, 2004
♥azi / 8:27 PM
she . . .
why isnt she good enough for him?
are her actions too big for him?
or she is just not right for him?
why cant she just tell him?
is it true that inner beauty matter the most?
or its just an understatement?
if true, then why he see right through her?
what is she lacking of?
is she the one he can say hi to, and just hang out, but not be more than that?
but, she knows him like forever, and why he still see right through her?
he . . .
what is wrong wif him?
cant he just see what is really goin on?
is he playing games with her?
does he know who is she?
what is he trying to do to her?
Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship--never
--Charles Caleb Colton
♥azi / 8:26 PM
You Are An Extrovert!
You have a ton of friends, perhaps more friends than anyone you know.
Nothing to do on Friday night? No problem for you to find the action.
You're friendly, easy to know, and you seem to get along with almost everyone.
You love to express yourself - and everyone knows a good deal about you.
Whether you're giving your opinion or sharing your dreams, you don't keep anything in.
my diary task: make prolonged eye contact with everyone you meet
well well well...
its super early in the morning and i am already awake.
miracles do happen.
i was uber disappointed when i look at the time when i woke up.
bloody hell. only 7.45am. -_-""
its alrite ar, i have to settle some stuffs anyway.
yesterday's meeting was erm.. CHAOTIC as usual. nothing new.
had dinner at KFC despite the fact that there's proper cooked food prepared in my luurrvveely house.
hmmm
the last night in campsite, i did some reflections and just some thinking.
what did i earn or get in volunteering in rcy? i mean. besides that i have great passion for it and i really enjoy what i am doin, what else do i earn?
i do not get paid (duh-volunteer what..) i actually have to sacrifice my time and energy for it which i have been doing for the past months. or in fact the past 4 years...
and it seems like i get a hang of it in juggling with my studies, family and time on my own.
i do not see any problems in doing it...
all these pesimistic thoughts i get are all from peer pressure.. and from my bro in law.
its quite ironic because he is actually discouarging me from doing all these when he himself is involved in his cisco stuff.
and the only reason he is carrying on its becoz he get paid in doing it.
as for me, i am doing it becoz the undying passion of it has just grown stronger.
and i am once again, glad i didnt carry out my plan (to NOT go for VIcamp).
till i get over you
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
♥azi / 11:09 PM
hehex bak!!!
ok . . let me continue.
erm.. o yah.. hehex
the parade was great ar. i tink i hav sore throat already
haha
o yes.. i tink i lost weight and i look tan (again . . .)
hahaha ya lar!! stand in the sun la.. sweat like pigs..
but i hav to admit its fun. and i know i put in 150% of my hard work... yah, and even if im tired, it is 100%..now its all over n done, onli time can tell....
and within my grp, i shant mention it here. too much info is not good also.
watever it is, i realli hope everything can b done asap and mintak2 tat pompan tak guner n pemalas nak mampos tak akan lulus man.
yay!!
so aniwei, went to watch harry potter wif michelle, poh boon and freddy jus now.
i was rather disappointed by it man.. ARGH!!!
troy is like ferking better man... so so so much better.
beside the fact theres hotties like ERIC BANA and BRAD PITT, its jus great n more action pack..
den this pb purposely wana find fault wif me - AGAIN. kaoz.
hahaa
but ok ar, its been DAYS since ive tok nonsense n jus r e l a x . . .
and i missed CSI coz hang out wif my family. gosh. missed out alot since i wen for camp..
like wat?
like my sis goin overseas to study..
like my bro came bak from overseas for study break ( n bot me the cooolest bag EVER!! )
like ustazah maria goin to umrah today!!
like jLo is getting married wif marc anthony!!!!!!!!!
hehex. ok im exaggerating but watever . . .
o yah, jus now wen libby, and i tot onli in robinsons sale there will be aunties rushing for stuff..
but also in libby..
no realli, they were like pushing each other to get the book they want...
i was like wth?!
coz there so much ppl there, until the librarians had to actually control.
and tat made me leave.. haha
its was kinda cute lar.. BOOK siol..
shall endure till 1am to catch CSI. dun care!!
n tmr theres meetings.. yah, notice the 's'?
one is CU meeting.. and the other is to plan the 20 wk plan wic we erm, din realli did.
haiz. shant mention it, very disappointing. nvm, UP AND ON!
eh wait, wrong motto. . .
we lead with pride!!!!
eh alamak.. ain!!! wen wana go shopping?!!!!!!
i nd to practice my bargaining skills again!!!!
treat me BK k? since u *ahem* work so hard...
;)
teeheee
and wen wana go xboxing?!! grrr.....
ok, shall go now to prep for show!!
i wana see archie kao in CSI!!! he BETTER BE IN!!!!
*faints*
i miss u guys from ULP and not to forget VIP.
♥azi / 2:13 PM
my diary task: today avoid all mirrors and concentrate on your inner beauty
end of VIP camp.
end of madness.
and now it all depends on the big ppl on the very famous qn
"did i pass?"
overall, the camp was great. manage to make frens wif the ULP ppl.. and im glad they regard me as one. however, my VIP members, arent realli tat enthu n hyper as the ULP cadets truout the camp. im still quite down n sad abt it.
during the debrief of the first day, i brokedown while giving a comment. it was a rather embarassing moment for me. i hav no choice, but to voice out my opinion. and some of u knows tat im a very emotional person.
it is not as tough as i tot it will be.
SWOC is tougher, and i prepared myself for this camp.
and here i am, survived. i manage to go tru ALL the exercises.
for SWOC, i was the casualty in humanity, i din get to jog to ECP n bak..
and i din get to go tru on the last day of SWOC camp
and now, i manage to go tru all. meaning.. i jog bak to ecp, din become casualty for anitin.. and manage to go tru debrief for the last day.
omg. i jus remembered, on the 3rd day morning, god knows wat happen, the nex thing i know,i was in the FA Base.
*faints* wat happened? eusoff told me wen ma'am called my name n watever, theres no response.
omg. this is freeeaakkkkyyy
but watever it is, i aim tat was my 1st n last time to be in there.
i gather all my tots wen i woke up, picked up the pieces and carry on.
carry on till the end of this camp wif a sense of satisfaction.
i am glad tat i am able to complete this obstacle.
during campfire, chatted wif mr sui, he was surprised wen i told him i was in the FA Base. -_-"" and one bite of the watermelon was HEAVEN. it was the greatest food i ate ever the past 3 days in the camp. and poh boon told me sumtin, haix. relax k..
not onli that, i volunteered to be the parade commander.. jus a demo ar..
and it was kinda cool ar..
lol! yah..
den theres this super long command, hahaha cant remember..
den everytime comes to tat part, either jianfu or eng kee sir will assist me.
haha but, it was a great experience man. shant forget it.
okie. continue later.
gtg now.. ciaoz!
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
♥azi / 10:23 PM
my diary task: write a message to the future.
so much to do, so little time.chaotic.madness.deprivation of sleep & xboxing.
onli a pathetic 6 ppl came for VIP meeting today
things jus got piled up
i dunno, but ive to say, im irresponsible coz i din get to come for the LIA meeting and b present truout the meeting.
and saragam peereegee perrergel are sorogo like fuck.
jarragust waragan turugu geret berege nerege firigit from terege gooroogoop.
i mean hello ar.. pls.
dorogont girigiv ehregex kiurooguses man.
n thank god we manage to settle quite a no. of stuffs ar
and now, im tryin to fig out how to do my work coz i left my file in shifan's house.. haish
nvm, shall plan my 15mins lesson plan
weeeeeee.......!!!
and my body still ache due to sunday's evac accred.
ouch baby, very oucch..
♥ azi
and as a profession, I am a follower of Florence Nightingale.
morning wen for madrasah. and my god, mite as well dun dtg seh. coz theres like a handful of us. and the friggin haji guy so the irritating!!! and i purposely throw sarcastic and rude remarks. hehe
fuuuuunn..... and onli fana, sal n me came out of the 5 cool girls. sigh. but nvm! still had fun ya'll!!
den rush home.. gedebak gedebuk. change clothes all.. den met up wif nas first. den took our sweet time to meet the others. haha. actually dun hav to mt the rest, but since we all are late, den jus go lorr.. reach liao, dorang semuer ask y i look very feminine.
-_-
nvm nvm. haha must shock them once in a while.
hahaha hehehe hohoho
den in the mrt, nas n me like kecoh siol. haha. make eusoff listen to nas sarawak guy story. den the rest gang up against us. wth. hahaha.
so, nas n me purposely throw sarcastic remarks and comments (again) hehehe.
how cool are we... ;)
met up wif daniel and kevin sir at novena mrt and makan at pizza hut!!!
weeeeeeee!!! so fun man.. we chat chat.. omg. such a great hang out.. love it many many.
aft tat, went play pool wif the rest.. heheh
long time nv play ar, so like rusty. hahaha. weeeeee!!!! quite fun ar, den saw cute guy.. *grins* but must keep my cool, like kevin sir said. ahem ahem.
aft tat, we head bak to wlands.. i wanted to tukar the baju frm gio ar, coz my mom ask me to change size. but takde. sians. so mus go agn looorrr.....
den met france, end up go macs n chat chat some more. hehehe.
aft tat balik. weeeeee!!! special thx to kevin sir for everything!!!
and i cant wait till sch starts!!!
:D
Friday, June 25, 2004
/ 10:42 PM
:)
You're the classic smiley
You're well-known and always cheery. You're just an all-around friendly person! You are loyal and can be trusted with a secret. Many people admire you.
a href="http://www21.brinkster.com/laurenn/smileyquiz.html" target="_new">What online smiley are YOU?!
camp ended last 2 days. and im not gonna blog anitin abt it.
im jus too tired to tink abt it aniwei.
o wells, nex week is my orientation. kinda excited and cant blive tat im startin sch soon. sians. hehe
and im still feeling sleepy. ZZzzzZZZz.
yday had a nice chat wif freddy,pb n khai. and got to know ALOT of *ahem* politics. i jus realise tat the real world is cruel. haish.
ish crap, now i dun feel like blogging.
yawnz.
/ 12:27 PM
Which [Diamond Shapes] are you?
Sunday, June 20, 2004
/ 12:26 AM
this is just great.
things just got worst to worster
argh.
now shall blog abt wat happen b4 i got the friggin assholic news.
morning ard 9am, mr kevin sent us (stella & me) to the schs to collect the log stuff.
pb spose to come.. but he *ahem* decided to rest longer.
o well, in the end, he joined us at a later time.
den hang at wgs to settle the stuffs.
aft tat, went lunch wif pb. waited like god knows how long for the rest (nj&ig) to go to queensway. on the way there, pb read the proposals stuff. ig did his SS revision *koffGEEKkoff* and nj ... jus.. read her notes and got distracted by the surroundings outside hehehe. as for me, i listened to radio and jus chill...
reach there liao (and met evonne), walk aimlessly to find nj's shoe. but in the end, we din. haha
so, pb & i collect the plaque thingy. and i wanted to get a top tat ive been eyeing on last thurday. but NO. ITS CLOSED!!!! argh. so sad man.den walk ard some more..
and this IGNATIOUS kept on disappearing. goodness, it shud b ME whois disappearing haha. he shud wear a leash nex time. teehee.
and in the end, decided to go town. we spent at least 10mins fig out/comtemplating/arguing on how to go to town/shud go to town. haha. yah.. and we (or mayb onli ME) sat at the steps and blocked the way. teehee.
found out how to go, we waited for the bus for ages. kaoz.
reach town alredy, we decided to go to far east. yah.. den went in and duno where to go. my goodness. can die man. den jus walk ard lookin for shoes and controlling temptations. and i also search for the top tat i wanted to get. argh.
kenaper kau tutup kedai!!!!!!??????!!! sampai hati patik!!!!! but o well, life goes on. hehe anw, pb is also tryin to fig out if he shud go for NDC campfire. until to a point tat we had to toss coins. hahaha. yah..
so we left town without buyin anitin. haish. *like tats new -_-* den on the way bak to wlands (and pb finally left for campsite), we're fig out if we shud meet ain at work. hahaha. yah.. but since we're such lazy bums, we met her at cwp.
o yah! in the mrt, nj & i played this snowball fight game in eve's fone.hehe fun fun fun. den we took pix.. and we kinda pissed this old lady coz we were pushing each other while sitting (yah, how immature hehehe).
reach cwp, we sorta walk ard to look for nj's shoe. BUT in the end, we bought ourselves (nj & me) a bag!!! PUMA BAG!!!! yay!!! omg. i felt so orgasmic wen i used it. hahahaaha.
yah i cant wait to use it, until i actually transfer all my stuff at the new bag. hahhahaha. very farnie.. it looks as toh we're smuggling sumtin teeeheeee.
we went makan at BK and AIN CAME!! yaaaay!!!!
chatted here n there.. den we decided to go bak to royal sporting house (tats where i bot my bag). but i dun wan to enter, coz im actually carrying the bag tat i jus bot. hahahaaha. how shameless.
yah.. den i jus hang ard sum other place while the rest wen in. den we walk ard sum more.. basically we covered most of the shops in cwp ar. and we went to the shops more than once.. like sportslink,royal sporting house,the craft...) o yah, den eve insist in showing me this $12 shoe bag (yes, u saw it right, $12) at royal sporting house. blooody hell. den i quickly wen in the shop wif my hand covering the bag. den quickly out. haha. ya lar!! paiseh siaaaaa.
den we end the day by taking a neoprint!!! yeah!!!
:):)
and i jus love my new bag. *hugs PUMA*
and yeah.. jus wen i tot of celebrating, sum interesting news came in. like we're not stress enuf. o watever...
i know we can do it eventually.so despite all those shits, we hav to do it as a team.
Thursday, June 17, 2004
/ 8:39 PM
im overloaded with information in my brain.
i need braincells.
i jus did some frenster thingy.. and i almost fainted.
no, no hot guys involved. but amazed by the number of henry parkers who are in rj.
im not bragging, but, i envy them.
i mean, we're from the same cool cool super cool sch, and we end up different places.
haish.
and it sorta reminded me of the bad memories in henry park.
im not such a good girl in hpps aniwei. nor am i as outspoken like how i am now.
and all the fights i get into.. i mean, not the blood shedding kinda fight.
but the childish fights. hahaha.
and the erm, bad record i got. i kinda got blacklisted coz of sumtin i done together wif my super cool frens (whom i shant mention coz of the bad record hehe). mind you, i kinda got a nice heart-to-heart session wif Mrs Dorai (our lovely hpps VP). so yah, im not a goody 2 shoes okie..
all i can remember the good times i had was the netball trainings.
wow. jus fantastic. tats the only time i know i get to be wild and crazy and run as much as i can. damn i miss those times..
and wen i went to evg, like WOAH. things sorta got interesting. hehe.
and here i am, panickin on the camp unity stuff.
o dear, hopefully everything will be a-okie.
urgh.
just one more camp, and i will be able to breathe easily.
just wen i get to know the ans, then i will be able to wear my HQ red cross uniform with pride and glory.
/ 7:38 PM
hmm. i wish can go jogging agn. hehe
yah yday morn went jogging wit Nj den met ig for breakfast
lol!
i know, jog liao, den makan. ish ish.
jus feel like jogging n settin myself free n jus shut myself from anitin else.
lalalala
now house feels so empty, my nieces,bro n sis not here.
haish.
o yah, yday i also watched the greece vs spain match.
im not a big fan, the onli reason im watchin it is to pass time until my lovely CSI is on. and its kinda entertaining aft a while coz, my god, the players are god sent!
such beautiful creatures!! esp from spain.
my my... i dun mind watching them, but i need to watch CSI BADLY.. hehe
honestly, i dun undst how soccer is all abt. i mean, the rules n stuff ar..
zero knowledge.
i watch the players, not the game
;)
how i wish i can b the first aiders there. omg. i tink I will faint first.
teehee.
jus now wen to buy log stuff for CU camp. kinda fun ar..
coz i know i met my ex-hubby, Cooper. o dear god, such great engine.
haha
mr kevin also very nice.. haha he treat us at swensen's.. yumz siol.
and i tink he is the onli one knows my true colors. haha
coz i kept on tokin abt guys and such.
hehehex
wat to do.. its my *ahem* first day.
muahaha.....!!
ok. now waiting for OC and jus slacking.
o shit. i cant, i need to send emails.
o tidaak! aku tak percaya.. AZURA!!!
/ 10:13 AM
my diary task: women only day
my sis just left for kl.
o how much i envy her... she's there not for a vacation, but for further studies at Universiti Malaya.
i wonder when she'll be bak to sg for a break.
and i will totally undst y she wont come bak (duh! theres PS,Masjid India st, KLCC, Putrajaya - all cheap cheap bargains god damn it!) and thank goodness i din get to go, i'll prolly burn all pockets with the shopping spree. teehee.
yday spent the last, quality time wif my sis at town.
muahaha.
nah, din buy anitin, jus window shopping. and she buy some stuff to be brought to kl.
one of our must-stops is Borders. and i totally fell in love wif the cashier guy.
*faints* hahaha
and no doubt, i found the love of my life ...
Mr Vanquish himself.
oh dear, his sleek body just take my breath AWAY!
no- SERIOUSLY.
*fans myself*
Tuesday, June 15, 2004
/ 8:49 PM
my diary task: today get someone famous to autograph your diary
okie. im depressed. so this will be another nasty entry which i will have at least once a mth.
so pls, bear with me. its very unlike of me to have this kind of entry.
but, no choice. i nd to voice out.
fuck the world.
no really, fuck.
why must it be like this?
why must there be comparison?
why must there be hurt or pain?
already it is not enough being in a competitive environment, there must be more of this fucking problems?
oh fuck the world.
why?! oh fucking shit why???
and YOU.
why must YOU exist in MY world?
you come and go.. and oh, why did i even CARE......
fuck off okie?
jus go away from ME.
AWAY.
thank goodness i will be moving.
selfishly, its also becoz of YOU, you fucking shit you.
you think its fun isnt it, to come and go like nothing happened.
such a FRIEND are u?
who am i to you NOW?
fuck. nothing.
i stupidly still regard you as my friend you fucker.
fuck.
im ashamed to admit i am gullible and naive and innocent.
whatever.
you're history.
Sunday, June 13, 2004
/ 8:50 PM
ok, when u know someone has more than 1 or 2 posts per day, that person is friggin bored.
and that person is none other than me.
haish. so sian.
after the doa selamat, i kinda slept n woke up at 6pm.
wah.. syoook.
anw, i watched rugby match jus now. scotland vs aussie. my god, its as good as watching band of brothers. very action pack and kinda violent. felt disgusted after a while. i wonder how huge are those guys. if i were to stand beside ani1 of them, i swear i'll feel micro man.
and i had to giv my nieces a bath. kaoz, like doing 2.4km man. hahaha i know im exaggerating. but watever. this little devils keep on running ard and instead of me giving them a bath, i got wet. -_- seriously man. but it was fun ar. haha.
my sis told me the whole family will b goin to kl nex thurs and onli b bak on the 25th. wassup wif tat man?! urgh. i wana go too!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i cant, coz i have CU camp.
bleah.
now, im dlding songs for my lurvely fren eusoff. he owe me BK meal(s) . hohoho.
/ 12:01 PM
my diary task: share someone's pain today
morning morning.
woke up with aches and pains, nothing new.
so, yday was kinda dramatic.
went campsite for evac gold accred, and picked up stella,linda and michelle.
hehex she was kinda late, and my dad kinda bingit. grrr.
we reach there on time toh..
the accred lesson was interesting. . . ambulance drills esp. teehee.
o well, off to lunch aft tat.. CU had a lil meeting and erm, i duno, the atmosphere was cold and hostile due to some 'disagreements' i assume.
off bak for accred. and i waited donkey years for my turn. i mean, they shud let the royal highness go first rite? *shakes head* o yah! at one pt, it was kinda tempting to psuh pb down the slope when he was on the ambulance stretcher (theres a proper name for it, but i forgot :p) hahaha hehehe hohoho
and we waited some more for the results till 6+.
den wen for dinner.. actually, me n michelle kinda reluctant at first. of course la, feel so extra and like erm.. extra. so we jus stick together. yeah!
o yah!! had a ride in the ambulance to marine parade. interesting ride.. haha. theres like 10 ppl at the bak i tink. haha. cant blive it.
anws, we makan kat parkway parade banquet aft lookin for places to eat. miss tat place.
and yes!! i ate carrot cake using chopsticks!! woohoooo!!! azi rox! realli test my patience man.. but it was a great feeling!! yay!!
aft tat they all wen toilet, den we like fig out where to go aft tat. reminds me of the 4e1's '03 hahaha. walkwalkwalk, stop. toktoktok,discussdiscussdiscuss. den move on. and its like a cycle. hahaha.
they sorta spoke chinese. but i dun care, coz i wana learn u see. so i jus sit n observe. hehe. no realli! i dun mind at all!! since i have a lot of chi frens, i kinda undst wat they said, and mite jus learn from jus listening. *beams* in the end, we decided to go ecp to PR. again, i was reluctant to go.
but, yah, i went lar.. den go to ecp play polar bear game. gawd. chaotic siol. equivalent to CU meeting. onli it is more civilised teehee. den play er.. truth or truth.
but most of the time i was staring at the sky. it was such a breathtaking sight. stunningly beautiful. it was amazing. and i was tinkin of . . . things tat made me tink.
and jus went i tot i was having the time of my life, it went frantic.
my bestest fren in the whole world-ain, called pb and ask where am i blah blah. den called my sis.. blah blah.
i panicked.
i cant sit still.
i jus wana get out of there. took cab home wif ys n stella.
once i reached home, no one was awake except for my mom. and the rest is history :p
to all 'involved' in the search party, sori for ani trouble caused and thx so much for your concern. *hugs*
and now, waiting for kenduri for my sis who will be leaving for KL and will onli come bak nex 3 yrs. [i tink i used too much 'for']
tmr theres CU meeting and i wana hang out wif my sis b4 she leave.
*sniff*
Friday, June 11, 2004
/ 8:27 PM
she . . .
why isnt she good enough for him?
are her actions too big for him?
or she is just not right for him?
why cant she just tell him?
is it true that inner beauty matter the most?
or its just an understatement?
if true, then why he see right through her?
what is she lacking of?
is she the one he can say hi to, and just hang out, but not be more than that?
but, she knows him like forever, and why he still see right through her?
he . . .
what is wrong wif him?
cant he just see what is really goin on?
is he playing games with her?
does he know who is she?
what is he trying to do to her?
Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship--never
--Charles Caleb Colton
/ 8:26 PM
You Are An Extrovert!
You have a ton of friends, perhaps more friends than anyone you know.
Nothing to do on Friday night? No problem for you to find the action.
You're friendly, easy to know, and you seem to get along with almost everyone.
You love to express yourself - and everyone knows a good deal about you.
Whether you're giving your opinion or sharing your dreams, you don't keep anything in.
my diary task: make prolonged eye contact with everyone you meet
well well well...
its super early in the morning and i am already awake.
miracles do happen.
i was uber disappointed when i look at the time when i woke up.
bloody hell. only 7.45am. -_-""
its alrite ar, i have to settle some stuffs anyway.
yesterday's meeting was erm.. CHAOTIC as usual. nothing new.
had dinner at KFC despite the fact that there's proper cooked food prepared in my luurrvveely house.
hmmm
the last night in campsite, i did some reflections and just some thinking.
what did i earn or get in volunteering in rcy? i mean. besides that i have great passion for it and i really enjoy what i am doin, what else do i earn?
i do not get paid (duh-volunteer what..) i actually have to sacrifice my time and energy for it which i have been doing for the past months. or in fact the past 4 years...
and it seems like i get a hang of it in juggling with my studies, family and time on my own.
i do not see any problems in doing it...
all these pesimistic thoughts i get are all from peer pressure.. and from my bro in law.
its quite ironic because he is actually discouarging me from doing all these when he himself is involved in his cisco stuff.
and the only reason he is carrying on its becoz he get paid in doing it.
as for me, i am doing it becoz the undying passion of it has just grown stronger.
and i am once again, glad i didnt carry out my plan (to NOT go for VIcamp).
till i get over you
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
/ 11:09 PM
hehex bak!!!
ok . . let me continue.
erm.. o yah.. hehex
the parade was great ar. i tink i hav sore throat already
haha
o yes.. i tink i lost weight and i look tan (again . . .)
hahaha ya lar!! stand in the sun la.. sweat like pigs..
but i hav to admit its fun. and i know i put in 150% of my hard work... yah, and even if im tired, it is 100%..now its all over n done, onli time can tell....
and within my grp, i shant mention it here. too much info is not good also.
watever it is, i realli hope everything can b done asap and mintak2 tat pompan tak guner n pemalas nak mampos tak akan lulus man.
yay!!
so aniwei, went to watch harry potter wif michelle, poh boon and freddy jus now.
i was rather disappointed by it man.. ARGH!!!
troy is like ferking better man... so so so much better.
beside the fact theres hotties like ERIC BANA and BRAD PITT, its jus great n more action pack..
den this pb purposely wana find fault wif me - AGAIN. kaoz.
hahaa
but ok ar, its been DAYS since ive tok nonsense n jus r e l a x . . .
and i missed CSI coz hang out wif my family. gosh. missed out alot since i wen for camp..
like wat?
like my sis goin overseas to study..
like my bro came bak from overseas for study break ( n bot me the cooolest bag EVER!! )
like ustazah maria goin to umrah today!!
like jLo is getting married wif marc anthony!!!!!!!!!
hehex. ok im exaggerating but watever . . .
o yah, jus now wen libby, and i tot onli in robinsons sale there will be aunties rushing for stuff..
but also in libby..
no realli, they were like pushing each other to get the book they want...
i was like wth?!
coz there so much ppl there, until the librarians had to actually control.
and tat made me leave.. haha
its was kinda cute lar.. BOOK siol..
shall endure till 1am to catch CSI. dun care!!
n tmr theres meetings.. yah, notice the 's'?
one is CU meeting.. and the other is to plan the 20 wk plan wic we erm, din realli did.
haiz. shant mention it, very disappointing. nvm, UP AND ON!
eh wait, wrong motto. . .
we lead with pride!!!!
eh alamak.. ain!!! wen wana go shopping?!!!!!!
i nd to practice my bargaining skills again!!!!
treat me BK k? since u *ahem* work so hard...
;)
teeheee
and wen wana go xboxing?!! grrr.....
ok, shall go now to prep for show!!
i wana see archie kao in CSI!!! he BETTER BE IN!!!!
*faints*
i miss u guys from ULP and not to forget VIP.
/ 2:13 PM
my diary task: today avoid all mirrors and concentrate on your inner beauty
end of VIP camp.
end of madness.
and now it all depends on the big ppl on the very famous qn
"did i pass?"
overall, the camp was great. manage to make frens wif the ULP ppl.. and im glad they regard me as one. however, my VIP members, arent realli tat enthu n hyper as the ULP cadets truout the camp. im still quite down n sad abt it.
during the debrief of the first day, i brokedown while giving a comment. it was a rather embarassing moment for me. i hav no choice, but to voice out my opinion. and some of u knows tat im a very emotional person.
it is not as tough as i tot it will be.
SWOC is tougher, and i prepared myself for this camp.
and here i am, survived. i manage to go tru ALL the exercises.
for SWOC, i was the casualty in humanity, i din get to jog to ECP n bak..
and i din get to go tru on the last day of SWOC camp
and now, i manage to go tru all. meaning.. i jog bak to ecp, din become casualty for anitin.. and manage to go tru debrief for the last day.
omg. i jus remembered, on the 3rd day morning, god knows wat happen, the nex thing i know,i was in the FA Base.
*faints* wat happened? eusoff told me wen ma'am called my name n watever, theres no response.
omg. this is freeeaakkkkyyy
but watever it is, i aim tat was my 1st n last time to be in there.
i gather all my tots wen i woke up, picked up the pieces and carry on.
carry on till the end of this camp wif a sense of satisfaction.
i am glad tat i am able to complete this obstacle.
during campfire, chatted wif mr sui, he was surprised wen i told him i was in the FA Base. -_-"" and one bite of the watermelon was HEAVEN. it was the greatest food i ate ever the past 3 days in the camp. and poh boon told me sumtin, haix. relax k..
not onli that, i volunteered to be the parade commander.. jus a demo ar..
and it was kinda cool ar..
lol! yah..
den theres this super long command, hahaha cant remember..
den everytime comes to tat part, either jianfu or eng kee sir will assist me.
haha but, it was a great experience man. shant forget it.
okie. continue later.
gtg now.. ciaoz!
Tuesday, June 01, 2004
/ 10:23 PM
my diary task: write a message to the future.
so much to do, so little time.chaotic.madness.deprivation of sleep & xboxing.
onli a pathetic 6 ppl came for VIP meeting today
things jus got piled up
i dunno, but ive to say, im irresponsible coz i din get to come for the LIA meeting and b present truout the meeting.
and saragam peereegee perrergel are sorogo like fuck.
jarragust waragan turugu geret berege nerege firigit from terege gooroogoop.
i mean hello ar.. pls.
dorogont girigiv ehregex kiurooguses man.
n thank god we manage to settle quite a no. of stuffs ar
and now, im tryin to fig out how to do my work coz i left my file in shifan's house.. haish
nvm, shall plan my 15mins lesson plan
weeeeeee.......!!!
and my body still ache due to sunday's evac accred.
ouch baby, very oucch..
